My Heart felt journey and Redemption in League .

This is my Love Letter to League and a slew of different emotions and experience ive came across with it . ( This is gonna be a long one if you're in for the ride , some feels trip and epicness then by all means you are welcome to read )

i was just your average 5'10 tall anime loving guy from the philippines in my teenage years when i came across League of Legends for the first time inside a computer shop with my friend named " Ace " , it was a one time thing that affected the majority of my life and my decisions afterwards .

i remember my first champ as Rammus and i felt so elated from just witnessing how his powerball works alone , Ace went with jax and started smacking and killing enemy champs , he was learning pretty fast and so was i . Ever since that day ,

i started skipping school pretty often , as the naive teenager i was i help league of legends and Basketball close , and lean more on taking school for granted which is a very bad decision for me , but i wouldnt be who am i today without these events and decisions . now for some time skip , years went by and new champs kept being added in the roster im pretty good at playing league now , i started to main Talon and kept playing random champs from time to time including jarvan and Evelynn .

My schoolmates that also ended up playing league gave a quite notorious nickname " Primordial Shade " cause everytime i use talon i have a unique hit and run pattern when i start pursuing a squishy ( during those times talon still has his old Ult and the omaewamou shindeiru gap closer + silence ) and they started looking up to me because of that ,i liked it.. it was as if theres a Heirarchy between my league playing schoolmates and i got my own personal throne and territory within it .

More years came by and im about 20 years old that time already and because of poor studies cause i didnt give it much priority i was moderately late in college for my age but that was it.. i was finally about to tackle my college life but alas my family decided that it is high time we migrate in Minnesota for good , so i wasnt able to go to college.. had to delay it even more because of being busy moving and finding a place and waiting for the family to settle for a job and bills etc. adjusting in America , anyways i noticed during those times i still had the Love for league and would never tire of it , i started working full time odd jobs in this new environment and place we call Minnesota , i didnt go to school let alone get assesed here , i know deep inside my parents are concerned and disappointed already but theyve always been supportive and if anything this is all my fault , i was handed everything yet i squandered it.. sorry for the feels xD but yeah all of those things yet league was there , no matter how random and out of place.. league was there..

I started playing again this time in the NA server , my whole League life all ive always wanted to do and kept doing was enjoying Normal games may it be blind pick or Draft and just enjoyed it to the fullest and with great cadence , going on massive win streaks and even 34 win streaks in a row , during those times ive realized that my mechanics and muscle memory are so heightened already including my map awareness , im actually fookin Good at this , then one day my curiousity got the better of me and i came across " RANKED GAME " hmmm as a JRPG loving player ( playstation 1 , playstation 2 days ) ive always been attracted and interested towards the idea of tournaments and competitive aspects , so it didnt take long for me to enjoy ranked , its much more challenging and diverse , strategies are much more serious , rewarding and more Hype . not much trolls during those days and you can still think outside the box with different and unorthodox runes and masteries .

i got as high as Gold 4 that time and started to hit brick walls and got stuck , now im not a rager or a toxic player but sometimes the Frustrate-o-Meter enters burst mode and i start being grumpy and cranky , it was during those times ive experienced the thing they call " Tilt " aswell . ahhh good times right ? :D , eventually i Reached Platinum and i was pretty happy and took pride in it . ive decided to stop playing ranked and be contented with that from that point onwards .

it was during those times too that ive decided to come back to the philippines for college ( college was cheap enough there that my parents can support me without breaking too much sweat ) i was trying to better myself in life , not just in league .

During my first year in college , i ruptured my ACL a major stabilizing ligament in the knee and it shoved me towards Despair and depression that ive lost so much hope in life , my college was done before it even started i couldnt take it.. i was in denial , i took great pride with my body cause im pretty athletic especially my Legs cause i have a knack for jumping high and i love utilizing it while playing basketball , and now.. just like that it was all gone , never the same , i cant play sports acitivites to the fullest anymore , i could not go all out in basketball anymore , i failed myself and my body failed me aswell , it wont move and comply like how i used to command it anymore , due to the instability issues the injury permanently and dramatically brought to my face .

ive became a different person eversince the injury , im not my happy go lucky self anymore , and also due to me watching alot of anime ive always pictured myself as a main character who destined for success even though not too great but i had a calling or some sorts and i probably thought im that kind of person.. you know , favored by the Gods , augh but all of those went down towards the drain . had to delay my college YET again to go back in Minnesota and undergo surgery and recovery for another year and a half .

Then again , League of Legends was there it always has been , i realized it plays a big part of my life at this point like maybe to even unhealthy levels already.. has it always been an outlet for me ? escape ? in a way maybe , all the more this time though , i felt like it was the only part of my life this time where i can be free.. free from the clutches of Injuries and immobility , it was an extension of my being it felt like Piloting a Gundam mobile suit , you're in the Cockpit and in control of a beautiful machinery which are the champions you control and play .

It became so sentimental for me at this point.. League of legends . i kept playing while i was recovering and stuck at Home , eventually my NA friends started to urge me to shoot for Diamond elo , like i dunno how it ended up happening but they convinced me to shoot for it . at that point , i decided hmmm fine ill do it ill shoot for Season 7 Diamond ! , i eventually recovered enough from knee rehab that i started working a full time job in a distant Factory to make good money , and at the same time shooting for Diamond , i started using Kled as my Main champ and eventually reached Platinum 3 and ever since i reached it IT WAS A WHOLE NEW WORLD , if league of legends was an JRPG platinum 5 would be the end of the game's story and reaching Platinum 3 would be the End game super dungeons or Super boss and its Realms or new maps , IT WAS INSANE ! everything that i thought i knew about the game that i was so sure of and all my strategies and tactics or Instincts was so effortlessly tossed aside by better and more brutal players , i was OVERWHELMED sometimes i wonder why i endure these torments and even contemplated if i was low key masochistic for allowing these things to happen to me hahah !

But it was during those low times where Redemption comes in not only in League but in my Real life aswell , i learned from my mistakes in League i didnt watch youtube videos or how to get to challenger videos , but instead i thrived while playing ranked , making friends with the random allies and soaking every bit of knowledge they Impart to me , slowly but surely my games improved , ive also dealth with " Tilt " with my own little way . i would do other productive things and bond with my family , run on the treadmill and have a good moderate weight lifting , and some pretty nice and chill snacks , instead of grinding all the way i play 5 games in a day instead , and if i win 3 games i will stop for the day , if i lose 2 games i would also stop for the day , THEN 1 day.. by the grace of the Gods , ive met a fellow Kled main in one of my ranked games and we became friends , it was one of those times where the main character from an anime meets an aloof " Master " that ends up Training the main character in their own unique and haphazard ways , i was so glad i met that person and i couldnt thank him enough , what i felt that time was pure redemption of my situation and the Final Form of my Kled with the combination of his teachings and my own instincts and playstyle .

I REACHED DIAMOND !! JUST 2 WEEKS BEFORE THE SEASON ENDED . with Kled top lane and Shen as my top lane reserve , i was soooo happy and jumped for joy from my chair as i savor the animations your platinum emblem undergoes evolving into its pristine rainbow prism Regal form you call " Diamond " , ive always been the Lone Wolf , they say most of top laner mains are , but as my journey came to an end everything was well and prosperous my Trademark IGN was" Maynaymisnaym " but now its currently named " Iron Jarvis " ever since that day , i went by many names , went by many roles and tried them all from support , JG , ADC , Mid etc. i was back into my Normal game galore just floating around smurfing and having fun , being all casual with a happy demeanor :D

I will never forget who i was in the League of Legends universe and ive enjoyed the journey ! it changed me as a person though its pretty sad i couldnt contact everyone ive added and came across with fond memories in this game ESPECIALLY THE KLED MASTER WHO TAUGHT ME T___T , it was a beautiful thing , league of legends taught me that by perseverance your can make it in life , your body is always faithful to you and only wants good for you , be healthy and always remember ( this is probably the most underrated and poorly utilized privilage of being a Human being ) is that you are very capable of ADAPTING not just in league but in life , learning from mistakes and from all time lows molds us and allows redemption in life and become the better version of ourselves .

I am 25 years old now , and while typing this i am 12 days away to go back in the philippines to tackle college again :D i chose nursing as a course and i intend to do it right this time , ( its the end game now ~ ) i am super glad and it was my pleasure to share this story ! keep learning and improving in league summoners !! you will get your goal one way or another ! , comments or thoughts / reflections i would appreciate aswell , have a nice day ! - Iron Jarvis