Perma Banned.

Was so excited after a long week to sit down and play some LoL tonight. I've played the game since its inception. Loved each and every one of the champs and skins I owned*, full friends list with countless people whom I will never speak to again - for, this, my dear brothers and sisters, will certainly be end.

Was an amazing time. One of the best games ever made - such amazing teamwork and strategy and great physics and speed. I will go through a withdrawal process I'm sure as with any great and highly addictive game. Gah, not looking forward to it! But so worth. As was Diablo 2.

I could certainly go on about what I like about league. And honestly, out of all the people I play with IRL, I'm the one rooting for Riot and the dev team the most. I'm the guy motivating the group to play. Looking up strategies, filling in roles. We all suck on the grand scheme of things, but it was damn fun while it lasted!

I just told them about my banning. We will move on, without league. It's a starting to feel like a relief but of course it is always unfortunate to end things without proper closure, when one party is stiff and the other fluid. So here goes,

While I do not agree with your politics and find them crude, dictatorial and downright foolish from a business point of view, I have always maintained to never attack people based on their beliefs, race, gender etc. Of course, Ive said some stupid things, but not about the person's identity. Maybe a joke here and there, but never along divisive lines. I play to win, and if I'm talking Sh!t it's because I see opportunity to work together in place of flaming each other on the all chat, report spamming or actually being toxic - apparent often in my final transcript; "stfu and group, we can win this". was like, my catchphrase.

And I get that I should/could be banned for that in someone's worldview, and that's ok.

But if I do get permabanned, then so should the hundreds of people whom have used insulting personal slurs against me over the years, about my gender or my friend's race or humanity as a whole and the list far exceeds any other game and I could go on. League of Legends, at least where I live, is easily viewed as the most toxic game ever. I'm not just taking a cheap shot, that is how I was introduced to it, at its inception, that is the general view of it online - you cannot fool me or yourself to think that is not at least partially true or was at sometime true.

Yet I always maintained that it simply was the best game available for our group. I'm coming to terms now with the fact that my friends are very upset about this, so I'll ask if at all possible, someday, someone from riot reach out to me. I really wouldn't mind never having chat on again, and never playing ranked again - Since I guess I'm just that bad. but I don't think I could stomach making a new account.

I'm sorry to anyone who I've hurt. That's really lame and I'm sure its happened and I take full responsibility for it.

I don't expect any apologies - we live in different times/states of mind/countries(?) where speech is valued more or less freely I suppose, and I'm on the Frank Zappa side. Again, no offense and sorry. That's all I know, I never meant to offend anyone, I'm sorry and I believe in free speech, but i don't care for politics.

I think all speech should be free, but even I have a problem when people make light of or joke about suicide, illness and anything beyond the game at hand that could interpreted as harassment. That's stupid. Shouldn't be happening at all.

So I've come to realize, the chat is the problem with the game. At least for me. People are offended and I understand. People tilt. Because of negativity perceived. And i'm not disowning my role in that. It happened many times over the years i'm sure. But I dont think or type the way I feel sometimes. I type fast. And, it doesnt really phase me, because sticks and stones is so fundamentally set in my head. But again, I feel like I only ever went off on people who were using slurs or generally being a dickhead. But never in as vicious of a way as im sure many of us bronze players are used to seeing, game after game. And not in other games really, not to the same extent. Because of the immediacy of it all perhaps? The anonymity? Perhaps chat restructured?

But in my world, words are words, played in Bronze a long time, every single match has people saying profoundly disturbing things that had nothing do with the game at hand and thats because thats people. Thats how kids are. Pretty sure we all remember how it was. Report and move along if they droppin' n bombs and try to just laugh it off cuz they just sum crazy lil kids or somethin.

So yeah that's it. To anyone who read this - thanks and have a good one!

Let me know what you think. I'm not gonna worry too hard on this game anymore. It will always hold a special place in my heart.

Take Care