My Goodbye Letter to the League of Legends Community

Today my account was permabanned, finally. I just wanted to say a little goodbye letter to the community here at League. Now before you down vote (or go ahead, whatever) I just wanted to make sure you guys realize. This isn't a whine thread about wanting my account back, or a thread saying I don't deserve it ( I totally do).

In a lot of ways I was eagerly awaiting the permanent ban, and honestly I'm surprised it took so long. Now I can finally put to rest something that I've been wanting to do but couldn't muster up to stop (like an addiction): playing League, and get being better at the rest of my life.

I want to thank every non-toxic players out there, thanks for being good people and mature/composed enough to not lash out behind a screen. We've had some fun times together, great games, Baron steals, and I've made a lot of friends on League. None of them who would consider me toxic. I hope they read this next part, since I only had these friendships on League.

I know it sounds weird to say but I'm never ever toxic when I duo, if I play with someone I'm having fun and no longer feel the need to defend myself and usually have someone there to calm me down when being perpetually attacked. I don't think I've ever been reported while duo'ing (whether old solo Q or not). That's why I ended up retaining so many friends.You guys know I'm fun as fuck to play with and really positive when we're in groups.

I want to thank the neutral players out there for not getting involved with the nonsense I've seen on a day to day basis for the last couple years playing League. The death threats, the cancer wishes, the insane arguments of absurdity.

Finally, here's the surprising part,** I want to give best wishes to the toxic players out there, trying to reform, trying to find a better you**. Trying to restrain and not retaliate. I know it's hard as hell, heck, I just got permabanned, I'm donezo and I needed to be taken out. This was isn't healthy for someone of my personality. If you really value your account, stop now, at all cost. I didn't value my account, and I lost it, but honestly I kind of wanted to lose it. League is a bad game for me personally.

To all the toxic initiators I just want to say thank you: Burn in Hell you evil scumbugs

It's playing Solo Q/Dynamic Q(especially) that got me. I can't sit there be told to kill myself without retaliating. I honestly feel more abused if I say nothing than at least lash out a bit. I know it's not acceptable. I know it's against policies, but I've always felt the trolls/true toxic initiators get alot of players like me in trouble. Since Riot only looks at 1 side of the coin (your involvement) you get in trouble. That's fine, I deserve it, I knew it, it makes sense.

Now with groups though I feel like there's many groups of Initiators out there, all of whom just want to make the Solo Q players life hell. Well they did it to me today, and me being dumb, fell for the bait again and here I am. Permabanned, many of the toxic initiators and trolls still avoiding or weeding their way through the system.

All in all

Thanks for all the good times League, I will use this extra 2-3 hours a day to be more productive, hit the gym more, study more, accomplish more, and more importantly work on my inner zen more.

Thanks for reading everyone, cheers, goodluck on the rift.