Shellshocked.
So as you can see I deserved a punishment for the choice words I had for the people in my ranked game that intentionally threw it, I honestly don't expect this post to have any effect on whether or not my account that I spent tons of money on is unbanned or not, cause it never really happens, I just want to put my side of the story out there for the world to see.
I'm not new to the tribunal's punishment system, I've been playing league for a long time now and occasionally I'll get very upset at some players on my team and without thinking I'll retaliate, like most imperfect humans do. This won't happen that often but sometimes I just lose my cool.
I want to apologize for my attitude and behavior directed at the people I've offended for the second time. There's another post I made of my last 2 week ban about a month ago, from which I truly felt I had done everything I could to reform and stop being toxic. Which I did, for a month, and got tons of honors, teamworks, friendlies, you name it in that month I got a lot of positivity in the game. It was very nice. Sometimes there were very unsavory people but I remembered my research and tried to keep it cool by reporting not retaliating.
This game was different, this was one of the few ranked games I'd ever played in my life and I was really exited at the beginning, I was ready to play the best I could and be as kind and helpful as I could throughout as I had been recently.
Nothing could prepare me for what was about to happen.
My bot lane, up and left.
They just left, they litterally ditched lane just for shits and giggles and caused us to lose the WHOLE lane in one swoop, they sabotoged my experience, my allies experience, and my enemy's experience by throwing the game. Needless to say, I was of course upset, and lost my head, and said some things I shouldn't have said. I called one of the laner's a "bitch" and their friend after they were trolling me because I asked them why they left lane.
I'm human...
I'm just an ordinary person guys.. I'm just some guy, 23 years old.. with a job, a home, a family, a lot of problems like everyone else, and I just play league to have fun and improve. I love league, it's my favorite game in the world.. I'm just a guy though.. I'm human...
I'm just human guys T_T... I'm sorry I got upset.. I'm sorry I have a bad track record with how I talk to trolls and respond to dodgers, quitters, cheaters.. the people that REALLY aren't doing what they're supposed to in league.. but d..do I really deserve a permanent ban? Do I get NO leniency?
I've tried so hard the past month.. I've done so well.. to get permabanned because of one slip up like this.. after I put so much money.. and time.. and love into this game.
Well.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry it had to be this way. I'm sorry I'm such a "horrible" person, with a 0.0006 percent the worst possible people in the world ratio..
If you ask me, those statistics hurt more than anything I've ever said to anyone, but I'm sorry.