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Sorry Riot Games, Here is My apology.

Khodul·12/24/2019, 7:29:04 AM·2 votes·3,128 views

Hello,

I'm writing today to explain my recent situation regarding my permanent suspension from League of Legends. This will be on the account: Khodo, (NA servers) so feel free to dig into it yourself. This is going to be a very long rant so don't bother reading it if you don’t have anything constructive or nice to say.

Alright, to begin I'll introduce myself, My names Noah and I’m 18 years old. I’m not a veteran league player as I only joined recently in season 7 just before the Darius VS Garen event. I want to share my side to the community and hopefully get my account back someday. Now on to the matter at hand. Over the past couple of months I have properly gone through the banning system of Summoner's code, 10 game > 25 game > 2 week > permanent suspension. By all means I will say this now, I broke the rules and a ban is necessary. What I’ll be arguing is the amount of ban.

I’ve always been an outspoken kid, saying the first thing that comes to mind, no filter, If I’m upset you’ll know it. I’ll say it now though, I’m not a liar. I’ve received a permanent ban before. On this account as well. And I know that statement alone is worth not unbanning me now, but I care too much to just let it go so here's my story: I received my first ban cause I was an asshole prick. I look back at my logs now and was kind of amazed and how much I have changed. I was using words like %%%%%%, gay, %%%%%% and a variety of words you’d expect from a angry goblin. I don’t remember the guy who offered me a second chance but he did and I’ll be thankful to that guy cause he changed me as a person outside of League as well. As of today I'm much more sensitive and caring. Now after this ban I changed, I never got immensely better but I was good enough. I muted before things got out of hand and kept my nose tucked in and for almost a year, I went without any ban. Pretty recently I went through a tough time, Graduation. I was getting kicked out and as I look back on it now, I was a bit more tempered during this transition. By no means is this an excuse but this translated into game time and I slowly ended up climbing the ban ladder again.

After my two week ban I really broke down. I looked inward and sought counselling help for my personal issues. After my two weeks ban was up I was in a better spot and was playing this game again. I lost a lot of friends in my transition though so I ended up playing a lot of solo games and I couldn't say with a bigger smile that I was having fun. I don’t know why, but I was enjoying this game again like it was my first time. If you take the effort to look at some of my games I wishing people merry Christmas, having fun with fellow League players, trying new builds and characters, etc. I made some good friends that I still know on discord currently and I was enjoying the game for what it was made for; entertainment. Anyways, this doesn't mean that everything is perfect of course, I still had a bad game here and there but I was trying to be better, not for anyone but myself.

I was bantering, KEY WORD BANTERING, with the enemy team and overall my experience was at a high. After what is Game 1 on my reported chat logs I got a permanent ban and was suspended.

Of course I went to appeal it but through multiple tries over the course of this month through different riot staff members, each one mentioned that it was impossible for them to help me regardless of the reasoning behind my ban. My most recent talk with a certain support staff recommended for my final attempt was to seek help through the forums.

Okay, this has been long but here are my chat logs and the brackets are my comments through them:

Game 1 In-Game Khodo: where the people are shitty and the staff are also shitty Khodo: dumb bitch Khodo: jahseh onfroy wont let you Khodo: ur mom Khodo: has Khodo: hepatitis (said that in all chat as i was joking around with the enemy ryze mid laner who I was camping, he was joking back with comments similar to these as well) Khodo: nice Khodo: my lux is Khodo: i bet you come last place in kahoot Khodo: ow Khodo: come Khodo: shaco Khodo: jajajajajaja Khodo: dumb Khodo: beta Khodo: bitch Khodo: uses ghost Khodo: mega head Khodo: garbage team (I was joking as we were fed and the score was like 13-0 for us) Khodo: what can i say Khodo: ur team ofc (covered it up by connecting and saying there team was the garbage team) Khodo: ha Khodo: ha Khodo: ha Khodo: ha Khodo: ha Khodo: hja Khodo: jajajajajajajajajajajajajaja Khodo: thats me Khodo: at you Khodo: right now Khodo: omg Khodo: my ego Khodo: its gonna go super siayan Khodo: i fuz ur mom Khodo: fuq* Khodo: mb Khodo: i just took ur viginity (more jokes with ryze mid laner) Khodo: im gonna Khodo: do it Khodo: again Khodo: lmao Khodo: u scared Khodo: gimme a hot min Khodo: i gotta kill gnar first Khodo: hes next Khodo: worth Khodo: cuz ur bad Khodo: big dummy Khodo: what did my mom say Khodo: no Khodo: stfu Khodo: dont tell me what do do (this was me telling my teammate signed to stfu because he was being mean and didn't like me to stfu, not good on my part) Khodo: YEAH Khodo: IM ABOUT TO GO SUPER SAIYAN Khodo: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Khodo: RIUGFHT ON THE BEAT TOO Khodo: i think i nutted Khodo: omg i wish there was 2 of me so i could fuck my twin Khodo: im the perfect human male Khodo: im having to much fun for me threating to run it down in champ select wtf (i threatened to dodge or lose in champ select because i wanted to leave and eat my pizza) Khodo: OMG Khodo: SUPER SIAYAN NUMBER TWO Khodo: well Khodo: stop feeding Khodo: dummy Khodo: i totally get that feeling Khodo: okay Khodo: lets run it back real quick Khodo: my pizz rolls are out of the overn Khodo: yes Khodo: AHHH Khodo: somehow Khodo: thats my shit lux's fault Khodo: terrible player (I died, making a funny joke out saying “somehow” even though she was at base no where near me) Khodo: OKAY Khodo: ANOTHER ONE Khodo: WE GOING IN Khodo: shut the fuck up and mute me whore (I imagined as a sassy attitude because singed was spamming me to shut up but not good I know) Khodo: im ur carry (I was 24/3) Khodo: why report me Khodo: well Khodo: Watch this Khodo: xd Khodo: real shit Khodo: im havign a lot of fun right now Khodo: if u dont have me muted yet say "gamers rise up" Khodo: cool Khodo: kaisa Khodo: im gonna kill you Khodo: oof Khodo: hate that pyke stun Khodo: dont take baron without me Khodo: im on my way Khodo: oh Khodo: ur not doing it Khodo: better players win Khodo: oof Khodo: Sad reality Khodo: im trash Khodo: anotha one Khodo: okay Khodo: ryze Khodo: im on my way Khodo: okay Khodo: fuck Khodo: didnt wanna do that Khodo: well Khodo: WHAT Khodo: MY OENTA???? Khodo: Xd Khodo: what happened Khodo: i thot i killed all 5 Khodo: i have HIV Khodo: the game knows Khodo: reported riot games for negative attitiude Khodo: hey yummi Khodo: im very upset Khodo: why Khodo: wanna tlak about it Khodo: damn Khodo: didnt expect that. Khodo: well Khodo: good gamer regardless Khodo: game* (Game 1 is my utter joy and me acting like a fool. This chat logs reminds me of myself blasting loud dubstep play Twitch Jungle and having a blast messaging around. I understand that people don't take what I say as jokes but i sincerely meant every word as a joke and to goof off)

Game 2 In-Game Khodo: EWAT Khodo: fiddle u fucking whore Khodo: get bot lane (fiddle left bot lane for no reason and he didn't come back for a long time, I was upset and I handled it wrong) Khodo: you ahve been in lane since min 6 Khodo: lee has done more supoiorting than ur dumbass Khodo: ur troliing Khodo: 10/10 fiddle is worse than trynd (trynd was my inting friend) Khodo: ur garbage Khodo: maybe if i had a support i mightve been able to snoball Khodo: but he just started jerking it everywhere Khodo: one? Khodo: zero Khodo: support Khodo: please Khodo: ive been bitching about you not being my support Khodo: you left my lane at 6 Khodo: and never came back Khodo: trash can Khodo: shhhhhhhh Khodo: ? Khodo: lee Khodo: you like in the womb (Game 2 I was duo que’d with 2 other of my friends and both of them were trolling and I’ll admit I was honestly upset not just at fiddle but also at them in the discord call, I was playing Twitch ADC)

Game 3 In-Game Khodo: uh Khodo: my game fucked Khodo: theres typing all over it Khodo: telling me about items Khodo: WHAT Khodo: okay fixed it Khodo: xd Khodo: i want that blue Khodo: HAHAHAHA Khodo: dont follow me lulu Khodo: ive got autistim (insestive joke, I understand, but I was hyped in the moment and i didnt soemthing very dumb that got my support lulu killed but not me) Khodo: and invisablity Khodo: i mean tbh Khodo: ur an indpened man and you can do what you please Khodo: okay Khodo: LULU ITS OUR TIME Khodo: COME COME Khodo: ez Khodo: stop. Khodo: big brain ezreal Khodo: either comit to being alittle bitch and run away or come with us Khodo: good Khodo: OH NO Khodo: RITORITO Khodo: wow Khodo: i shoulda left Khodo: IM ABOUT TO GO SUPER SAIYAN Khodo: RYZE Khodo: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Khodo: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Khodo: MF Khodo: wanna talk about it? Khodo: pls Khodo: dont ff Khodo: i want a full match Khodo: i need to hit my power spike Khodo: come Khodo: YEAH Khodo: SUCK THESE Khodo: ur too 2 good for this team lulu Khodo: wanna try that Khodo: AHHHHHH Khodo: anoteh easy game (game 3 I made friends with the lulu -she was a really good support- and I had a lot of fun with the entire team that game, I was playing Twitch ADC)

Those are the 3 Game’s that I have been reported for and I understand that I broke the code but I want to explain my love for this game to finish this off. This game has been my daily life for a while now. It’s been there for me when I need to take my mind off something, its provided me with countless memories with good friends, and most importantly It’s been a good game to return to each day. I play this game ruthlessly, grinding everyday for nothing at all. I don’t excel in ranked nor am I mechanically gifted by any means at all but I’ve poured sweat and tears into this game. I cried for hours after my ban begging support staff and pleading with any amount of money or effort to get it back. I would do ANYTHING to get it back, I’m not rich but I’ve got a small saving of 2K that I’d drop in a heartbeat for it back. when i say anything I mean anything, League community service, you name it, I’ll personally fly down to Riot Games headquarters and apologize in person if that's what it would take. Even if the ban was only issued for half a year instead of permanent or a permanent mute and ranked ban (because you need communication for ranked).

Anyway, I’m getting too soppy to continue writing. I know this a marathon of reading but this means more to me than anyone would ever know. Any help or wisdom on this matter is greatly appreciated and a whole heartily thank you for reviewing my case and I wish you a merry christmas. <3

PS: questions are welcome and I’ll answer as soon as possible

23 Comments

Eedat12/24/2019, 7:51:07 AM6 votes

My man those are some wild logs. You go above and beyond to insult and harass people all game long. You call people bitches, whores, trash, joke about both mental and physical disabilities and diseases, etc etc. I'm sorry dude but your actions have consequences. You were already given a second chance that almost nobody gets and you did not correct your behavior. Riot practically never overturns permabans. It's extremely rare and the fact that you now have two on the same account is pretty much gg. I wish you luck on your new account

KFCeytron12/26/2019, 5:50:39 AM3 votes

Riot reversed a correct permaban, and then instead of being on your best behavior you say things like "shut the fuck up and mute me whore" and "fiddle u fucking whore," call people "trash can," and tell your teammate to "either comit to being alittle bitch and run away or come with us"? And you think you can get another correct permaban reversed? If I was that Riot support person who reversed your first perma, I would be incredibly disappointed in you, as well as ashamed that I allowed you to behave like this. If you showed this thread to your parents, what would they have to say?

Arngrim3112/24/2019, 8:02:26 PM3 votes

You wasted your time typing out this lame sob story, when your logs tell a different story. There is no coming back from this.

MotherKaiser12/24/2019, 5:48:32 PM2 votes

League is not a place where to bring your mental issues to, to be 100% honest, you got several warnings and the 14 day suspension is a big red signal. You still wrote one of the most toxic and insulting comments in game to other players. Sorry bro, but you totally deserve your ban.

Permabans are not reversed unless system error, but in this case, you own every single step that took you to this. You can always enjoy starting a new account from 0 and learn to be nice to other players.

Kroda1312/24/2019, 4:54:39 PM2 votes

Wow that was 100% deserved and you where lucky the first time they unbanned your account. Should have counted your blessings then.

Lyte Reformed Me12/24/2019, 8:07:49 AM2 votes

Riot banned you because unfortunately you typed more than playing the game. That's the main reason.

wilsuport4coffee12/26/2019, 5:33:31 AM2 votes

Lol, you got a perma reversed and want another one? That's hilarious.

Tele II12/26/2019, 10:38:27 PM1 votes

You seem way too focused on yourself as a person. You should be more focused on what the rules are, and following them. Most of your writing is just irrelevant information about you as a person. No one cares. The rules arent a moral code to be followed in life. They exist only in the vacuum of the game itself. You never mentioned going and reading them, figuring out the nuances, and how you know them so well now that you can prevent yourself from breaking them again. Riot doesn't care about your personal life. They care about your ability to follow the rules, which you never mention once, and the money you spend. You will never have your account back, because thats just how permanancy works, not because you dont seem remorseful. So stop with the "ohhh i changed so much im such a better person" bullshit, and learn to follow the rules. The rules have nothing to do with how you are as a person.

Khodul12/24/2019, 8:53:07 PM1 votes

After some looking over some of your comments I cant seem to comprehend my own toxic behavior and I now understand that this is toxic behavior and to accept it. Along with accepting it I will respect Riot's decision to permanently suspended me from their game and I will no longer play on any of my accounts. I don't think I can change any more as a person and from the view of the mass I'ts obviously not wanted. So I will take my leave from the game and to move on with my life.

I'll take this opportunity to thank League of Legends for all it has done for me. It's proved me with countless memories good and bad, an immense amount of happiness that got me through some tough times, and just a simple form of entertainment I could turn back to day after day. It’s been a pleasure being part of your game and community and I wish riot games and everyone attached to it, the best of luck. Thank you once more and I wish you all a Merry Christmas.item 3682

MaMaDeW12/26/2019, 4:29:44 PM1 votes

Bantering with enemy? I do not know how people with criminal record still do not /mute enemy at level 1. As if the enemy had anything interesting to say or wanted to congratulate you and cheer you up for killing them ever. I know that trash talking is fun for some, however by your first ban, you should have already used those 2 weeks to some of the hundred stories available on Boards to figure out that this game is not the right one for banter, you know how banter works, you try to bark the loudest by using edgier words than the opponent. The game is strictly controlled to protect snowflakes. [zombie-brand-clap]

Khodul12/24/2019, 7:35:38 AM1 votes

Sorry I forgot to mention but my current account that I've been playing on while this is banned is a support main named: Khodul. My goal for this account is achieve honor level 5 and prove to Riot games that I did change and I can be a positive member of the League community.