this game makes me sad
I have not played league in over 2 weeks check my op.gg if you dont believe me. every time i log in when i have that small itch to play i dont and after 5 min of looking at que up screen i log out and play something else, i just feel that when i play 1 of three things will happen... 1.) i will feel like halfway through the game is over and lose all interest in it and not care win lose i just want to go play another game and now i am stuck in this boring game for another 20-30 min if not more. 2.) the team will be toxic and i will have to deal with being harassed for 45 min or be forced to mute my team witch is bad because ahe hemm communication is important in league but how can one communicate when all the chat log is is insults and immature behavior. 3.) we will win and I will feel no reward because i just spent 45min-1 full fucking hr of stress and mental exhaustion but for what? 19 lp that i will probably lose next game or lose in a few weeks and then derank again. IDK just now when i log i say to myself hmm do i really want to play this game for an hr for one match and deal with stress mental exhaustion and sadness for a chance at such an unsatisfying reward that means nothing and i will probably lose, or should i spend an hr playing another game like world of Warcraft RBGS or 2v2s or 3v3s and get rewards win or lose and not have to deal with the 3 things listed above.
I personally think this is the main problem with league, its too mentally exhaustion and it just turns you into this evil sick human being because of the community and overall game play. this is why if any of you care witch you probably don't is why i am done with league, why would i play a game that is unsatisfying and or not rewarding and just makes me angry/ a bad person. i guess i will just have to bite the bullet on the 700$ i spent on skins because i loved this game when i first started and i have fond memories playing armas and normal's night after night with friends but once i started taking this game as well a job or seriously that is where the magic stopped for me i guess.
and i know this will be disliked to shit but id just like to share my thoughts because you know, thats what forums are for.