I'm frustrated with the players

I am just here to rant because I don't know what to do with everything i'm feeling. Almost every league game there is always someone flaming someone for playing bad. Sometimes its me sometimes its not me. Whenever I do get flamed I understand that I need to not retaliate against them, but with how often this is happening I lost my patience and now I just respond aggressively whenever anyone disrespects me the slightest like a question mark ping as soon as i messed up something. It feels horrible. I am never one to start the toxic train, but I am the one to respond and encourage them to be even more toxic. Recently I found and played with a clash team. It was amazing. We communicated, we talked, not just about the game but about ourselves and I got to know them. However I cant always play with them due to me placing silver 3 flex and they are plat players. So I am trying to climb to gold, but recently I just can't handle it. Just one game of toxicity completely ruins all future games for me for that day. Whenever I start a new game after it I just keep thinking about the last game about how I hate being forced to play with them leading me to do worse my current game and the trend continues. It also keeps me up at night thinking I just want to play one good league game before I sleep which leads me to just stay up playing multiple games and in the end I am not satisfied at all. I don't know what I am trying to accomplish typing all of this. I am very frustrated. I don't know what I am trying to get from this. But I am going to post it anyways because this isn't the first time I went into the boards to type up everything only to delete it later after I calmed down.

Some extra stuff you should know about me is that I am using another account I have to type this due to not wanting my clash teammates to find out about this.