My Own Behaviour

Hey all, so to start this let me just say that I've been playing this game since before riven hit rift, I distinctly remember her hitting rift and me being like "Wow she looks so dope!" But I have always been bronze, mostly due to never playing ranked through the years of playing. I tooled around a bit last year and got to maybe b4. So this year I really decided to do ranked. boom, bronze 5 to silver 3 promos in a few short weeks. but when I hit silver 3 promos, the ego? that i was trying so hard to suppress, somehow bounded forth and f***** me in the a** down to s5 i went... and then id win maybe 1 out of every 4 games. I went from a 79% win rate, to a 45%, my mmr tanked, and id get mad, and id lose some more, and Id get more mad, I wasn't getting mad that I was losing though. I was getting mad because I knew I could play better than I was, getting hit by pull after pull, morg q after morg q, team flaming me constantly, I'm feeding, just no kappa, all the way around. So I started playing normals to determine the source of my suckiness, game after game i played watching myself every game and even though i was focusing so hard on myself to see what I was doing wrong I just couldn't figure it out, why was I so slow? Then it Hit me...ME. every game i played from silver 3 promos and on for the next few days was about me...and not the world, not the map, not the enemy whom I should be watching instead i was focusing on myself and how good i was blah blah blah. What I'm trying to say is. use the ugly skin so you dont watch yourself and how awesome you are, look at the graphs later, watch your replays, kills and deaths to see what you did and how you coulda played better. focus on the enemy, and nothing else. glace at your mini map for enemy movement, predict the cs your enemy is going to try to get, predict their combos and spells and out play them. force their summoners, and save yours. focus on them. not on yourself. GGWP