Help me... I can't stop getting suspended
Im at 5 maybe 6 permabanned accounts now. I really try to improve everytime but eventually all my effort is for nothing after a few games. Muting doesnt work for me, I just dont have it in my nature to simply go "whatever" and move on. Not proving them wrong or whatever pisses me off more then anything. I try to be less toxic. I try to stop cursing as much but eventually people provoke me and all of the build up just comes out over a few games and there goes my account. I had just got off a 14 day and ended up with a riven and syndar that blamed everything on me because I didnt gank enough or whatever. I said build armor to riven and help me when i gank to syndra because she didnt the time before. The answer with threats of feeding or afk. So I dont help them and they start saying gj after I die, saying to report me for trolling after I die, and spam pinging me. In these kind of games I just let out all my anger and my account is gone. I really want to stop but I just can't otherwise I just heat up and tilt badly. What can I do other than muting?