Someone with "Master's Degree in Psychology" deliberately accusing and insulting me in game
I am going to post this as a discussion as there are way too many things to say, but long story short, I will give you a brief explanation of what happened in the game.
Skip to the dialogues if you do not wish to know the background story.
I locked in Nasus support because I was auto-filled and the only support champion I had was Janna, which I had no intention to play at any time (I've never played her before either). No one objected it which was good. I bought relic shield and started using my q to execute minions so that I get stacks and my ADC gets gold. Unfortunately, my ADC was pretty bad at the role and we lost lane quickly, despite the fact that we were able to get double kills on the enemy bot lane with my Wither ability.
When we lost the tower I started to stack by myself. Tristana was angry about this and started spam-pinging me, eventually leaving me alone and started farming mid. Meanwhile, our Garen was having none of it, and started being extra by flaming the crap out of me (without swearing). Eventually, he said something like "You don't care about anyone else you're just ruining other people's fun." This is where I became properly pissed.
I didn't answer aggressively, all I said was "I was diagnosed with depression 2 months ago, I don't care about any of you". The person that joined in with the flame (Tristana) apologized, but the other person who was playing Karma immediately says:
"Go kill yourself then"
Obviously, I was very disturbed by this reply, but I didn't say anything. Garen, however, kept on with his rant and started saying stuff like:
"Don't believe this kid he's not depressed" "He's just playing the victim" "he's just a kid who's pathetic" "if you're depressed it's not our problem deal with that yourself" "I work with students dealing with depression, he's not like that"
Yes, you guessed it. This was the man with "Master's degree in Psychology" as he claimed later in the game. After bashing me for another 5 minutes, saying the exact same things after the game, he left.
So, what's your verdict on this. Is he a Master at Psychology?
The truth is, I have no idea if I have depression or not. I have yet to have an official diagnosis. For the past few months, I have been quite down and perturbed, not constantly but this kind of feeling dominated most of my days, thus I cannot know for sure. I have lost most of my interests in things, and recently I have been noticing my quick decline in my strong interest in music (I am a music scholar in my private school). It has gone to a point where I am no longer afraid of death, and I do not care whether if I die or not. I can almost greet Death like an old friend, poetically enough. I often wake up exhausted, ironically enough, and have hardly any energy attending lessons. My teacher/tutor often asks me if I am ok, but I always reply 'yes' because I am unsure about my state, and I am unsure if he is able to help me or not.
Playing league is one of the only ways I am still able to be happy, especially playing it with my two friends. There I can feel content, that joy that I once felt three years ago. It sounds pathetic, but isn't that what I am?