Straight up just went afk and realizing I'm probably a toxic player, but how to reform? [Discussion]
I realize going afk is bannable, and beyond that, just a trash thing to do, so help me reform my dudes. Not my first time either, it's been a problem in the past and I'm getting back into that rage pattern again. Might get banned for posting this, maybe, idk? Willing to do my time tho it's only fair if that happens.
Just got out of a game I went afk for a few minutes ago. Played an off meta pick of Fizz jg in norms cause autofilled. Died during my first gank, rip, but no biggie my team can carry me and what not. Later I go for a pick on the enemy midlaner but get baited pretty hard and die for it, then get pinged on by the support. I ping the dude about 30 seconds later when he totally whiffs an ult cause I'm still a little salty about him pinging me in the first place. My next death he spams my death timer, so I tell him to chill on the salt, which gets some dude he queued up with to start flaming me too. I get accused of being a troll and the top laner gets in on it too, so it gets to the point where the only person not flaming me on my team is the adc, who was pretty chill. So at this point 3/4 of my remaining teammates are just running me into the ground and I afk cause frankly I have no will to play for a team that goes out of their way to make me feel unwanted (and I'm not saying that them being toxic first justifies any of my actions or makes me any less toxic for how I reacted, especially since the Lucian who did nothing to me was impacted by my decision to afk, I'm just saying why it felt justified to abandon the team). Game was 100% winnable, we were all doing okay for the most part but our mid was doing great and it should've been easy enough to just close this thing out with all five of us, like this wasn't a matter of being behind or anything.
So I'd like to get some discussion going, for the sake of bettering myself and anyone who stumbles upon this needing to reform a bit. What do you guys do when you wanna afk? And not just from the type of situation I posted above but advice for other situations is also appreciated (knowing that your team can't win the game but they won't ff, getting wrecked in lane, etc.), also general toxicity discussion if you want.
tl;dr I get toxic and I know I'm not the only one, need some more well tempered bros to give me and the other ragers some advice <3
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