Well it's official i guess.
I have played every day since i got my chat restriction on July 3rd.
I've had no punishment since, and I have known that if I do not abide by the rules, I would not get my victorious skin, which I really covet.
The ranked rewards are my main drive to play this game. I figured 4 months of consistently playing and NOT shit talking would get me somewhere, but I just dont know what to do.
I played for about 20 hours in the last 48. I played 37 games today trying to honor farm. I talked people up, I did everything I could, sometimes in the face of GREAT and irritating toxicity (which riot has stated that it's bannable to point out that someone is toxic here's proof, this was Raz from player support:)
> You don't need to ask for multiple reports and throwing your team's dirty laundry into all chat will only create more turmoil amongst your team > [5:16] [All] ArtOfAttrition (Tristana): yeah report him > > [5:18] [ALL] ARTOFATTRITION (TRISTANA): HE'S TOXIC > Berating this Ali due to his play > > [10:53] ARTOFATTRITION (TRISTANA): HOW DOES THIS ALI STILL HAVE AN ACCOUNT > Voicing out your frustrations in chat doesn't solve anything nor does it produce the results you want as the sole intent of chat is meant to provide constructive feedback a player can actually act towards
Sure I deserved the chat ban or whatever back in July, I'm not here to deny that, but I played faithfully for 4 months EVERY DAY and controlled my temper...and for what? To get to the last checkpoint to honor level 2? It takes a lot of effort not to react to people who are rude in the game, to not react to those who want to intentionally ruin your fun with their actions (inting/griefing jg mobs/ telling the enemy team your locations)?
So what if they get banned after the game? They still ruined your play time and it leaves you with a negative feeling even if you DIDNT say something. It's hard not to react, but I didn't. I talked people up, I made some new friends along the way, and overall I feel like i am a better person throughout it.
BUT
4 months is a ridiculous amount of time to still not have recovered from a temporary punishment, and that's every DAY play. I cant imagine how long it takes for casual players. I've played this game for 5 years, I've spent well over 1k on my account in that time on loot boxes and skins. Hell I spent 200 at one point while in a deep depression after convincing my self i'd feel happier if I got hextech annie (and then never played her). I dont know of any other game where it takes this long to remedy a temporary punishment.
Well.. Im sorry riot but I dont know if I can really come back after this. I earned my reward, and now I wont get it. I have played hundreds and hundreds of games (usually 3-6 per day, sometimes more if I decide to aram) in those four months, but somehow it's still not enough to recover.
I dont know what I expect to come of this, but I needed to put my feelings about it out there.
I like your system riot, it just takes FAR too long to recover. 1/3rd of the entire year is too much for a temporary punishment.