I purposely got banned today.
I can't stand it when the score is 3/16 at the 10-minute mark anymore. It's fucking ruining my mental health and is causing me to flame the shit out of people because it's literally so damn consistent. It's like I'm purposely trying to give myself a damn headache just by logging into League. I can't do it anymore, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm just so toxic to the point where you have to permanently ban me 20 times now due to me not being able to mentally withstand a dreadful game because my teammates are so oblivious. I honestly am, I don't act like this in person at all, or in any other game in general, this game just puts me on the edge so damn much. It's like a tick I can't fucking get rid of. Once it starts, I just go off. I don't stop, it's like I black out. I'm sorry to all those I've told to kill themselves and what not, I don't actually mean it. I'm not an awful person, the game just drives me mad, and the people's attitude in it as well. I'm officially done with League, and I'm glad. This isn't a pleading post, I'm happy I've been banned for the 20th time. Not something I'm proud of obviously, I'm just looking at it as a restart in my life.