The Breaking Point

So lately I've been trying to talk less and talk positive in chat. I used to flame a lot and I'm trying to get better at it. Encouraging teammates when they play bad even though it aggravates me, and muting people who flame. But there comes a time, where trying to think positive doesn't work. There is that one teammate who pisses you off so much, you can't hold yourself back anymore, and starting flaming the living shit out of them. It feels good at the time to let it all out in the game instead of punching a hole in the wall next to you. But when it's all over, you lose the game because that one person pissed you off so much, you couldn't hold it in. This was more of a rant than it was anything else. I just get so pissed sometimes, that even trying to hold it back in game doesn't work. One of my games I had a while ago, this amumu pissed me off so much, it just came flying out of my mouth. I had less than 15% HP and was backing, he gets invaded at red, and starts pinging for help, I pinged my health and said if I went I would die. He dies walking under mid tower to a nidalee, and I'm back at base. He starts flaming the living shit out of me and does it all game. I wasn't really paying attention to it, and muted him. HE STARTS SPAM PINGING THE ENTIRE GOD DAMN GAME. At the end of the game, when we lost, I let it ALL out, everything I wanted to say and everything I didn't mean. it all came out, I was trying to be a nice person and shrug it off to win. At the end of the game, I had had it with him, and started swearing left and right, saying things I didn't mean, but holy shit, it felt so fucking good. I'm trying really hard to improve my attitude, but god damn, it's really hard when that one person makes you lose it. Thanks for reading my rant and GL on the rift. ~Diamond