I've been a toxic idiot!

I have played LoL since season 3 and I really enjoyed the game, I wasn't really good but I played to win. I easily got upset and tilted when something did not go in my way. I ofc took that out on my team mates and enemy. I verbally assultet everyone basically. With my kind of behavior I got over 500+ chat restriction games and I swear at the time it made me almost quit playing league because I was unable to respond to taunting enemies xD. Jokes aside after numerous warnings I finally got permbanned and has been around 3 months now. At the time I thought it was complete bullshit and it was unfair, thinking about how much money I've spent on the game, climbing, getting champs, runes etc. My view on LoL-players were that they were to sensitive.

Well today I logged into my banned account just to read what I got banned for. The pop-up read "You're among 0.006 % of LoL players egregiously negative enough to be permanently banned." That really chocked me. Then I proceed to read what I wrote in my last reported game and damn I'm really ashamed of myself. I had to express my feelings somewhere about this because I just realized I was a complete prick towards my teammates and the community, I deserved that permban. I'm very sorry for my negativity towards fellow players and the community, I just wanted to say that.

I still play other games and I'm not toxic anymore and that's because that was who I became when I couldn't handle losing and ofcourse I could not see that it was often me that failed. Example when I play nowadays, instead of bringing negativity on my team I try to support them, "were late game bro, it's okey, don't worry." xD. It actually gives your team a better chance to win. I took the game way to serious and for what? I'm glad i've reformed because I was a toxic idiot.

Again I'm sorry and I deserve the punishment for my actions.

PS: Sorry for my bad writing, grammar etc. (cries in swedish).