I enjoyed my game
I lost my last game, and yet, I still enjoyed it immensely.
I did die a lot on an unfamiliar champ, I didn't do the most damage, I wasn't the best player in the game.
Yet I enjoyed myself, because I didn't care about the outcome.
I didn't care, I was just playing for my own amusement.
This is a massive paradigm shift for me. I stated my intentions that I did not care about the outcome of the game, I stated my apathy for the opinions of the other players on my team. I did try my best, I was cordial with my teammates as well as the opponents (one particular opponent asked for a suggestion on a build and I offered an educated opinion respectfully).
However there was one particular player who took it upon himself to consistently call me toxic. My apathy towards his decisions in the game, as well as towards the decisions of all my fellow players, somehow offended him, despite seeing visibly that I took steps and actions in order to try to win the game (this was a normal game, not ranked btw).
My expressed apathy was seen as toxic by this player as well as one other in the latter end of the game (people tend to look for a scapegoat, so why not the guy who doesn't care?) Despite all this treatment, post game results came in, I had less deaths than 2 players on my team, I did 2nd highest damage to champs, yet somehow I was toxic, or was I? I had fun during this game, I really did. I enjoyed myself.
tl;dr If I do all I can to win a game, yet express complete apathy towards the game I'm playing for the sake of my own enjoyment of the game, is that toxic?