A permanent banned player's plea.
Hello, sorry for the long post, but please read the entire post.
Edit: I made clarifications on this post below, I didn't want to change the original first reply
I am currently permanently banned as of 01/25/2016. I am deeply shocked about this, but I feel the punishment wildly jumped at me out of nowhere (but it may have been justified, will mention below). I started playing league around the year 2010, and have been a long time player for about 6 years. It was a long memorable journey from unranked and hitting gold ranked in season 2. During season 3, I have reached diamond and the years after that to finally hitting the highest tier of diamond 1 over the passing years. After a few years passed, I feel like my toxicity grown. As a new player up to season 2, I was a bright positive player who have never been punished by the system (even receiving the summoner's santa baron icon as a reward for positive players). After reaching the point of diamond 1, it was the time when my toxicity became to manifest itself.
As I play more during the passing years, I have been losing a lot of games, I eventually hovered between the ranks of plat 1 and diamond 5. I wanted to climb higher and higher in the ranks; hence, I would scrutinized every play that my team makes (that went in a negative direction). As a result, I would become toxic by blaming my team-mates for being bad and mentioning their lack of individual skills. When things never went my way, I would afk at the fountain. Soon after, I have been punished by the system by having my honor badges reset. Then afterwards, it became chat restrictions. All those punishments were justified, as I was a whiny player. But, I felt all those punishments were a "slap on the wrist." I have never said racist, homophobic, and profanity comments (maybe some profanity throughout the years). Though, recently, I try not to be majorly toxic (even though, I may say profanity in a few times once in a while under rainy days) or my neutral comments may sound negative to be regarded as toxicity. Or, some of old toxicity habits still exist of blaming others. As I said, I never said nothing major in racist slurs, homophobic, or death threats in high amounts. But then, deep down within the long passing 6 years, maybe, there were a few moments that could be justified for that punishment.
Playing ranked for 6 years had changed me as a player, I relied on my team too much. I ignored the most simple important fact, that I shouldn't rely on my team and focus on the fact of improving myself as an individual player. I have never received a temporary banned (not a 1-day, 3-day, nor 14-day), but now, I have received a permanent ban. I have been a long-time player of "League of Legends," since 2010 and been a loyal fan for about 6 years. This permanent ban has greatly shocked me spiritually and physically, resulting in great sadness plus heart aches. Hear my plea ... I would like to ask for a 2nd chance (a probation) for redemption. I don't mind if my account will never get ranked rewards for life. I want to come back to playing league, and I miss playing it. It only took a ban to act as a huge eye opener to me, that I lose playing "League of Legends" for life. I have so many good memories on this account, as this game is apart of my life -- body and soul. This permanent ban woke up my eyes, and I am greatly ready to change. As a player who never received a temporary ban, I will show you change, I guarantee you that. Please accept my plea. Please forward this to Lyte as well.
I am sorry for all the players that I have wronged. Mere apologies won't be enough to remedy those situations, but saying "sorry" is the first step. Thank you for reading.
