Am I taking this game so serious? Or Am I just cursed in everything?

5 minutes ago, Friday night, just had dinner with friends at applebee's

came home with a great mood, while i was doing laundry, i started playing league, ranked, mid lane, ahri

every one was doing fine, positive attitude, trying, and trying and trying even though bot lane fed non-stop , the rest of us in the team still believed that we can win

then support alistar said "i gtg, lets feed"

when he said that, i thought he meant getting our adc fed, then no

he walked into their adc lucican, let thresh hook him , then 1 vs 2

but still , team was full of nice players, no one complained anything becasue we all had one goal, win the game

then alistar said "i really gtg" after he fed their adc a couple of times, then he went to base, said "bye"

so this is not the first time i had players start a ranked game then leave, do they care ranked less? or am i just taking this ranked mode so serious? I also feel like i was being cursed because not only im Gay, but also every time i play i either get verbal players, or verbal feeders, or afkers, or afkers , one day I played 8 games, 6 out 8 had at least one afker,

so i dont know, i feel like if you are straight you are blessed in every way, even when you play games but I am a closet gay, I feel like i am not good at anything, not school, not games, not friendships, not relationships , nah, not everything,