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Mental health and League of Legends

Based Ebola Chan·9/21/2016, 3:15:58 AM·2 votes·676 views

Hey there guys

This message maybe totally useless but i dont think i can properly put the matter to rest without at least explaining my situation.

A few months ago (Im not sure now) my account was perma-banned. I was very very Toxic and very very offensive. So offensive infact my own girlfriend was surprised at some of the things i would say in chat. I was bad and i deserved my ban infact i should have been banned sooner.

I was off my medication for the longest time and my mental illness would be flared up when playing league with it being such a higher stress enviroment than what i was able to handle at the time. That account though meant the world to me some of the mystery gifts were from some pretty important places for me personally and losing that account was honestly pretty devastating but i acknowledged even at the time it was deserved.

Nowadays things are a totally different story. I am back on all of my medication, you released RGM but most of all i had a break to take the time to reflect on not only myself but this game. I transferred my EUW account and started playing again.

I actually enjoy myself now i am calm, there is no stress and playing RGM only has basically sedated me when it comes to anger. I dont play Ranked and normals had to many people practicing for ranked RGM was what i needed for a long time now.

I know you probably get this all the time and i dont even know if im talking to the right person but is there any way i can be granted ONE last chance with my banned account? I dont think i can properly acknowledge its gone without explaining my situation, that account meant more to me than you might realise 😞

Thankyou for taking the time to hear me out if you bothered.

Yorick.

4 Comments

disregardable9/21/2016, 3:23:00 AM1 votes

No, no there isn't. Permanent isn't a figure of speech. Glad you're doing better though. As long as you can keep up the good progress, you'll be able to keep the new account.

Based Ebola Chan9/21/2016, 3:41:53 AM1 votes

I understand. Maybe Riot needs to look into maybe a post talking about mental health and this game because i can only assume it accounts for a larger percentage of toxic behavior than people think.

You aren't in control and there is nothing but constant negativity around you the whole time when playing. People cant see the rotting wood from the trees and they end up like me.

I guess its time to finally put this account to rest. Pretty heartbreaking tbh fam.

61939590DEL19/21/2016, 3:53:24 AM1 votes

There's some people in this world who need to be on medications for mental illness for life. Yet there's some that can grow out of their mental illness on their own.

We All get angry/tilted on any games we play. (We all do so plz don't lie) With "Anger" we acknowledge that THIS whatever it its isn't Fun no more. In my experiences I can turn my tilt/anger into sadness, because it's just not fun. For some people it might take forever to achieve your "mental switch" yet some say they don't have it, but sorry you're wrong. Tyler would be consider a guy who hasn't acknowledge his mental switch( just by viewing only 2 videos i did recently)..

I recently did 2 Mental switches since my games weren't working out they way i wanted them too(we all can agree we been through that) NHL17, Black ops 3 were shitty on me, so yea decided to throw it away & pop it my Season 6 of "24", that's just an example of a mental switch.

Based Ebola Chan9/21/2016, 4:14:53 AM1 votes

I totally agree with these "switches" League became unfun for me in a huge way back then. I played purely because everyone around me did and it did nothing but contribute to the negativity.

But one the other hand that account represented what little achievements i had at that stage in life and honestly losing it was like losing a personal keepsake. The weeks after losing it were ACTUALLY a rough time something i didnt think a video game account could do.

The game is good for people with Mental health problems but it can also exacerbate them. I think Riot needs to make people who are diagnosed truly understand the consequences of losing your stability.

I have done so much work since then on myself and i really thought today could have been my redemption but i guess its all over. Its all gone.