I lost everything but was shown mercy. Hopefully people don't lose sight of professionalism.

Too Long Didn't Read: I am a recurring Diamond III player that is quite known for representing Singed as a practical blind champion pick, though not to the extent of those higher elo with him than me. As my ego and lust for more attention grew, my brewing hatred for those I felt holding me back eroded my professional silent attitude in-game. After a particular collapse from Diamond 1 due to circumstances relating to trolls, I effectively snapped and in a short-lived outburst went insane with toxicity in-game. It was so bad that Riot was initially content with permanently exiling me, but after frantic apologies and observation of the situation given how I was never toxic or in trouble before, I was let loose on a week ban.

Regardless, in my pursuit of more glorious elo I lost my calm and now there's no hope since I've lost my rewards for the season. I'm not sure what to learn from this incident. Ideally they said I should learn to a better person, but this whole thing has only nurtured my murderous bitterness toward people.

Regardless, I won't type anything in the game ever again if I happen to play. Not even for favorable roles or bans I would like. I hope people remember my tragedy as a lesson to never be tempted by people you hate, no matter what, as it will always bite you back.