Losing my positivity. Need help getting it back.
Hey all. After this day, I'm taking a break from League. As any League game for anybody, it's been stressful. I could've sworn I was reported a few times today due to my quitter mentality. I harassed the screen with "Surrender Votes" when things got grim, I declare the game over when the enemy
goes 7/0/2 before the 15-minuet mark, and I beg for the team to surrender when I feel like the game's being held hostage. I don't tell people to "kys etc." or leave the game when things didn't go my way, but it doesn't make a difference. It's all negative and unessecary. As someone who is supposedly "Honorable", my behavior has been rather pessimistic. This isn't how I was the past 2-3 years I've played this game, and there's no way I'm getting banned/suspended for it either. I can't continue this mentality. I'm just tired of losing and being pessimistic about everything that happens and how the games gonna go to Hell in a hand-basket. I just stopped playing ranked entirely because of it.
If there's any advice the reasonable community can give me to kick this bad habit of mine, feel free to share. This isn't who I am, and I can't let it define me.
And I apologize to those out there who I teamed up with that pulled through when we were sure to lose, but came back hard and busted that enemy Nexus.