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I made a mistake

Maneguster·8/31/2017, 7:17:01 PM·1 votes·328 views

After the last post I posted about what 45 minutes before this one I thought to my self why am I really upset about being banned. I realized that I love playing this game and everything about it has made me a better person outside the game. I made my first few actual friends playing this game. Before I started playing this game I was one of those kids you would see in elementary school who when ever they would get upset over being called a name would have to be given pokemon cards so they would shut up. I did grow up out of that but the anger and short fuse issue stuck with me my entire life. I played league eventually making friends and slowly getting over this issue. being banned made me think if I get banned I might go back to being who I was and I don't want that. That was a life where I had at one point thought if all I do is get angry then I just shouldn't be around anyone. Now that I have also started college I feel more stress then ever that if I don't become a normal person then I will end up a failure at life. So i no longer care if i get unbanned but I would like to continue playing the one game that made me happy after years of just crying in a corner alone. I also know already that my anger and short fuse issue is not an excuse but like any good company would try to do is say I am sorry and try to put out a fire they started and help fuel. Also saying these things does not mean I will change right away but will try to.

3 Comments

Telephone Booth9/1/2017, 11:08:36 PM2 votes

Glad you realized this. I know a guy I used to work with... takes everything personally, gets upset, feels he's being attacked when they only want him to do his job. He thinks the bosses pick on him and give him too much work and I would constantly talk him down, telling him that's an absolutely normal amount of work for someone. He's 55, still bouncing around jobs because he always has "asshole" coworkers that leads to a lot of drama and he just can't stand working there any longer. I believed his stories when I first met him... then I noticed he was starting shit over NOTHING. He was overly sensitive, insecure, super defensive.. I called him a little shit once and he said he would normally knock someone out for calling him little (but isn't because he likes me and I'm a nice guy and he knows I was joking)... he's got a Napoleon complex because he's short.

The point is, being that way will only hurt you. He's now losing his condo and struggling with bills n such. Maybe if he wasn't such a pain to deal with, he would still be at a job he had long ago, making much more money, instead of working where I work, starting as a Limited Time Employee getting paid 10 an hour. He's since been fired from here... the reason? They told him "It just isn't gonna work" because he just starts so much shit over nothing. So because of his own attitude, he has no one really close in his life and is constantly on the grind to find more work to get by.

So yes, please try your best to keep your self in check. No one is going to do it for you. You will simply continue hurting yourself and be frustrated looking for people to commiserate with. People don't like commisery unless they're in misery as well. You will lose friends, jobs, opportunities... so I'm glad you've realized your flaws. It's natural to feel that way. But the important part is realizing it, and keeping it in check.

Mizuki Zahra8/31/2017, 8:06:37 PM1 votes

make a new acc and start over think of it as a fresh start, with the runes becoming avail to everyone you should be able to manage back to lv 30 in no time