Regarding my Account ban

My dear Riot administrator,

After thinking about this for more than a week, I decide that I must write something here to express my sorrow and regret while praying for forgiveness for my aggressive speech in game that led to my account ban. I started to play league of legends since season 4 after watching a friend playing this game. We became teammates and soon I found my talent on this game. Every year starting from season 5 I achieved platinum tier in solo queue and climbing up to diamond is my ultimate goal. I have watched as many lol games as possible (LCK, LPL, LCS, MSI, Worlds), unlocked all champions, read articles and practiced champions of all positions. It has been 4 years and probably tens of thousands games that I have played ever since and of course there are games that I fight with my teammates. I am an person pretty aggressive while trying to reach my goals, which in this game is to win and to climb up, and also I have mania in real life, which reflects to my game speech more or less. I have to admit that my account has been temporarily chat banned 3 or 4 times and account banned for 2 weeks once because of my aggressive speech to teammates. I know that was all my fault and due to my mania when my teammates are performing not as good as his tier, I tend to get upset and angry more easily than normal people. I should not have said words like 'stop feeding' or 'I don't think this is your account and you do not belong to this tier' which may cause further fight or hate speech between each other. This could not solve the situation and only leads to bad game environment and hatred between teammates. About 2 weeks ago I had a fight with my teammate Jinx in a solo queue. She did really bad at bot lane feeding a Kaisa and his performance was obviously not at the skill level of his tier. I was trying so hard to carry that game as a mid lane Veigar, which is my main mid land champ. I asked Jinx not to go mid and he should farm bot until he has items to fight. But he is unfriendly and calling me stupid which triggered me since I have been nice to her and trying to win this game even though we got destroyed early game. Then we started the fight and we both said lots of bad words to each other and we reported each other after the game. Then I found my account was permanently banned instantly. I was really shocked since honestly I do not think a 'perm ban' is fair enough based on my situation. I have always been the person trying to win every single game and never went afk in a single game no matter I am 1/10 or my teammates have that score. My mania did made me triggered easily sometimes, but I promise I am the guy who takes this game and every possible win seriously, not a person flaming teammates with no reason and then quit the game saying I do not care about the win and my LP. At this point, I have to ask for forgiveness here to you, my dear Riot crew and I wish the ban can be adjusted to a shorter period rather than permanent. I have been watching MSI games these days and it is really heartbreaking while watching when I realize that I am banned from this game that I have spent so much time/money/energy on. I have learnt my lesson through this serious system action and I have realized that if I do not behave well ever again, the result will be a permanent ban, but please give me a second chance upon all these.I know I must keep my mouth shut and not flaming my teammates in any way while trying to win because they are not contradictory. And I should not take my mania in life into the game to affect the experience of other players. At last, thanks for reading all these and if you need any further information or you want to talk to me privately, I am ready for it.

Best,