Depression and Escapes

Well I've been playing league of legends for a very long time. I've noticed more times than not recently but when I come to play this game, it's not for fun, it's not for competitiveness, i've played this game a lot recently and to escape from the fact that I'm very depressed. Generally are use video games as a coping mechanism, whether it be good or bad. I know for a fact that you can't just ignore your problems and expect them to go away, you can't just feed a Yasuo and expect him not to capitalize, but you can go other places get stronger come back and deal with your problem. But recently I've been noticing I'm not the most self confident person, ( and yes I know there are others out there like me that play league That are like this and they bully others to hide the fact that they're struggling) i've been trying to work on my confidence for a very long time but I've noticed recently that my escape is becoming a problem because I'm having to deal with so many toxic players. I don't really see that being the issue though it's that while there are the Seo typical, Yasuo and riven mains, at one point we are all guilty we've all had that game where we've been super Uber fed, and our cockiness gets us killed and makes us lose the game. I've been trying to find ways of how to get my self-confidence up, that I've noticed that me playing Janna in the support role has been a major help. It makes me happy when I help others succeed because if they succeed I did the right thing and help them succeed. I'm no pro LCS player and I know this I know I'm not the best iMessage to everyone does, but it hurts when even for the tiniest thing that I know I messed up on I'm just instantly barraged by everyone in the game about how it's all my fault, and hated for it. I know everyone in any Lane gets this, ( generally junglers and supports) but I guess that comes with the job. I know this post may not be big or huge but I know maybe a couple people will see it and I hope they spread the word that well there are people like me, that struggle with stuff in real life and use league or other games as a coping mechanism. I just hope that we can spread the word that well yeah, you may run across the many players of the world that think they're better than everyone else, I realize that some people get offended when you assault them constantly after a mistake people realize when they mess up. that doesn't mean you should just constantly harass them for, some people go through a lot of issues in life and the things that used to escape can become the things they need to escape from.