Relief of a perma ban and why you should quit now.

I regret every dollar I have ever wasted on this game. Only to acquire skins, cosmetics, and get nothing in return. It is one thing to take a gaming communities money and listen to their needs. But I don't feel Riot has done this. But instead has built and encouraged the most known toxic community ever formed. Which only lures in more toxic players. But hey. Skins right?

Being a season 1 player, I've seen it all. Or so I've thought. But every year I come back regrettably, and am shocked with the decrease in just overall fun. It is already a massive chore to try to win. You won't play to lose, unless you are one of the 80% accounts out there. But some players actually try to win, and the biggest inhibitor to this is their own team. There is nothing worse than being pitted in a 5v5 situation already knowing that in every single lobby you enter in. none of your allies trust you, they all resent you. Most of them don't take the match seriously. And they are just waiting to call you out on your first mistake. I don't mind you fucking up once. Happens. But when you are constantly doing it in many ways over and over, you are just bleeding us all dry. And this is matchmaking. You just never know what garbage allies you will have, so you expect garbage, and already are going into the match with pessimism.

I did not used to have this in the early seasons of the game. When you could actually employ long term strategy. Where skill actually mattered in the game. Now it seems to be all about 1 guy getting hyperfed off my trickling unaware allies. Ugh.

But I'm not griping about the lack of player skill. That is part of the problem, but not the biggest problem. Riot themselves are the jerks in this scene.

I have uninstalled the game before and immediately felt relief from it's toxic existence. But then unwillingly came back cuz my shit pc can't play anything else I'd actually want to do. So I do not care that I am perma banned. I've already used a secondary email to create this account and level up which I will be abandoning because I refuse to give your garbage game another second of my attention. You enable a hostile environment where trolls win by default. And we have no recourse but to suffer the inevitable. We will use our keyboard to type characters to somebody who is using their forethought and intent to give us a negative gaming experience. And we will suffer for it. What i do not understand is how many players are allowed and encouraged to just log in every day. And intentionally tank and feed games. But I am supposed to just stay quiet about it and take it as part of the gaming experience, or I suffer the negative consequence. They have no recourse, so long as they do not touch the keyboard. But it doesn't even have to be intentional.

I used to be a Jng main. The only role where I could maybe imapct the entire map enough to try and do some damage control. The past 4 years of my playstyle have been entirely focused on trying not to lose matches and let my 4 allies worry about winning. I cannot stop the broken thought patterns everyon =e shows of just running at the enemy all the fucking time. So I may as well try to work with it. And as a main jungler. Everything was my fault. Everything. There was not a play that happened on the board that was not my fault. No, I never got any credit for showing up and burning somebodys flash and making them drink a potion. There was no "thank you" for that, the standard response is "learn to gank noob". Because again the entire mentality and environment of the game is negativity. That is all that it is about. What did somebody fuck up, and how can I appear better by pointing it out? You know how you win games? breaking the fucking nexus. I don't care how many kills you have. For too many years the mentality has gone downhill and broken into this "try hard" play style where everything is all about just getting kills early and getting more kills and more kills and more. This is so bad.. Being stuck to replay the bronze ranks every year after placements. I see absolute self destruction all the time. Just yesterday here I am in lane doing just fine. We're all good. reach level 3, and from watching map I know their jungle is in their nearby jungle and potential to gank. so I ping ahead of time. yllw ping. I walk away a bit, red ping. Of course my shield and exh are ready to go. I'm support, I will keep you alive its all good. I drop my ward and before even able to step backward my adc is in position to be picked off and I have no recourse to respond. At what point do I have control of the outcome of the game? Where does my skill begin to have actual affect on who gets gold therefore items and power? Skill means nothing when my adc cannot back up for 2 seconds. How many games have you lost while running up your mid lane toward your team.. but they cannot back off for 4 seconds to regroup. Get picked and you lose it all to trickle. It is disturbing how many throws I have to witness. From mistakes I have not made for literal actual years. But I can't say anything.

For me to complain about my allies mis plays. Is unsportsmanlike. So the expectation from Riot, is for me to accept the fact that my current rank is where I am stuck. That's it. You and everybody else, bronze. bronze, silver, gold, its all the same fucking mess anyway. Which team has mess feeders? That's it. Riot gives you this hope that personal skill and practice will reflect in your rank. But it's a lie. When I have to win a game that I hypercarry get top gold on my team. 17 k gold over my allies with 12k gold and 3 enemies with 16-17k gold. No, matchmaking did not do its job. But hey I'll take the LP I have earned from this win I worked hard for. Only to have the next game be filled with helpless feeders who flame you, do not listen, and do not stop feeding. Now you lose LP and are slapped with the reality that nothing you do matters. But in the end, still top gold and kills on your team even while losing. And still out gold some enemies. Because of standards.. But matchmaking does not hold the same standards I do. I expect my lane mates to have a certain level of skill and be able to understand the length of the game. Know that cooldowns is a thing. Know that there is a map in the corner of the screen. Basic things that most of my allies have failed to show me. But matchmaking does not change. Ranked system does not change. I can fight my way through the year working around an actual life that I have in the 365 days that transpire. Maybe work my way up to mid silver. Only to be reset back to bronze next year anyway. How can I be silver 3, win 8 of ten placements, and be demoted to bronze? Yeah. makes total sense. Go fuck yourself.

You have no impact on your games. Don't even bother. Maybe you can get a win streak. Then feel the frustration of "I would win if I didn't have these anchors!". And that is why the game is broken. Because we have to not only deal with these anchors. But it is unsportmanslike to bitch about having to deal with them. Wouldn't it just be easier to make a matchmaking system that works? Maybe then we would be willing to give you money. Instead of you sucking it up from new players that you bait into thinking they have a chance. Making people think there is a long term career here. That if you put in the time and get better, your rank will reflect that. It won't. And even if you are gold, you are still "only" gold. I have experienced this at all levels. No matter where you are, your peers immediatey want to compare you to not being good enough because you could be better. That automatic negativity that comes with league of legends is not in any other community.

Thank you for the permaban. I can finally mentally let go and be free from "maybe I can just endure the feed and get through it.". But you cannot defend against players dropping reports and the automated system not caring about any factors. You have created an actual prison for players. And people walk into it. Every time I see league of legends advertising online I feel bad for the world. You are trying to lure people into joining your terrible community just so you can make a buck. Don't do that. Take the time to actually give a fuck about your players.