I want to be banned so I dont feel bad about not playing a game that I spent money on

I am tired of this game. It used to be the highlight of my day, something I did with all my friends, something I really enjoyed. But over the years, this games community has turned me into a toxic person, not just in game but also in life. I never had issues with being toxic when the game was fun, I enjoyed playing Karma, back when she was good, when she was the first, AND ONLY, champion to get 6 skill ranks in her abilities. Ever since Karma got a full rework, I have slowly found this game less and less fun. A lot of it has to do with the community, the other portion is due to the fact Riot has LITERALLY targeted SPECIFICALLY ME when deciding who to rework. Karma, Sion, Yoric. One after the other. And they at one point had the gull to spit in my face by taking Karma's old uniqueness and giving it to cancer Jace. I remember when tanks literally only tanked and didn't get damage just because. I remember when assassin's were fun and could actually do their job in less than a second. This game has changed far to much for me to find enjoyment out of it anymore, and it has literally made me worse as a person outside of game. If I could sell my account w/o worries, I would, in less than a second. But I can because I don't feel like potential Legal BS. At this point I really want to take this as the cancerous loss that it is and be able to leave the game. But as long as my account is active I will not be able to leave. I can not just throw away something I spent money on. Nor can I go deactivate it with my own hands. If anyone takes the time to read this, and then also happens to be in a game with me, I am truly sorry for how I will be acting, but at this point, I need this cancer, the cancer that is riot, the cancer that is riot employees, the cancer that is the league community, out of my life. Not only so I can have more free time in my life, but so I can work towards not being toxic again.