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I crossed a line tonight and I need to report myself.

Strawberrycocoa·12/14/2017, 6:30:46 AM·4 votes·439 views

Can't really think clearly through the self loathing and disgust so going to make this concise.

I'm a toxic player who has fallen through the cracks. I try to bite my tongue but the toxicity keeps coming back out. Sometimes I type in in a furor but delete it before sending it. Today, as has happened other days, I didn't delete it before sending it. That wasn't an accident, I got too mad and stopped caring enough to bite back the psychotic shit that comes into my head when I'm frustrated and tired.

I went to all chat and told a guy who was outplaying me in lane that I hoped he got in a car wreck that took away his legs.

I'm tired. I'm so damn tired of being so god damn horrible on the inside and everyone thinking I'm a good person when Im not. And I don't know how I haven't been banned years ago for the shit I say in moments of impotent gamer-rage, but I'm tired of the person I become when I'm losing or being chain-killed in this game.

I want to request my account be banned or deleted, please. I've tried uninstalling the game in the past and I always come back a few months later. I think it's time that I do something to make coming back an impossibility. I've hurt enough people as it is. I'm not worthy of being a Summoner anymore.

9 Comments

Zombie Gerbil12/14/2017, 6:54:47 AM3 votes

It really takes a lot to admit the wrongs. You know, the right step to a better path is knowing where you're wrong. If you do get your account deleted, you might regret it in a few years. When you truly better yourself and acknowledge the things you do and say. If I was you, and I was on the path of bettering myself and improving myself control, as I know you already said you did once, but uninstall and find other competitive games you play.

Maybe I can make some suggestions how I keep my cool. When I really lose my cool, I just play some single-player games. Then I expand my competitive games. Between Overwatch, Gwent, and back to League. I do exactly same things you've done. I'm sure a lot of other people do as well when you type something out and end up deleting it. But when I do that, after that game, I play a different game to soothe my mood. Calling it a night sometimes.

I hope you do figure it out. If you do end up blocking your account, then I wish you luck.

ModDaenrysTargaryen12/14/2017, 6:36:43 AM2 votes

If you really want to Terminate your account

https://na.leagueoflegends.com/en/legal/termsofuse#account-termination Read 2.1.1 I would advise against it but it is your account.

TheProfezzor12/14/2017, 7:28:27 AM2 votes

Good on you for knowing and admitting your faults. That being said, what you said was pretty extreme and I agree, you should be banned. If Riot is watching, please ban this guy.

sAyCo12/14/2017, 12:44:58 PM1 votes

don't ban ur account just leave it as it is