@riot Low honor depression
I got the rank of dishonorable. I flame when I stay up too late playing ranked, and I deserved it.
But the issue here is, I go for long periods of time without being negative, and it feels like I go nowhere. I dont understand it. I can move down, but I can never climb out of this hopeless pit of despair that is the low honor levels. I get more and more toxic as I feel more and more hopeless. My games begin to be lost from my tilt, my toxicity, deepening the spiral. I'm not usually a toxic person, but every time I get into this rut I go deeper and deeper. I get sadder and sadder... then I finally see my honor drop. There's nothing more depressing then being down this low. I feel like I'm never going to climb out, like there's no end to my nightmare.
Riot, this is my request. PLEASE after your first or second report, please give a warning out to the person that encourages them to stop being toxic. I know it would save me, set me on the right track when im spiraling down into tilt. Also please, please help us dishonorable people move up before the end of the year. Be transparent on what we should do to move up in ranks beyond "Dont say anything in chat and pray that you are honored by randoms". Make it easier to climb down here, It feels soooo hopeless as is, which just makes me even more toxic and depressed to come back to this game that I so love.
I would take a break from the game, step away from the game, but it feels like leaving will just destroy my chances of getting my end of year rewards.... It makes so many emotions well up inside me, making me play worse, making me tilt even harder. I just cant do it.
I'm going to go cry myself to sleep now. Thanks for listening to my depressed rant. Please, please someone red respond to this topic. I'm not pleading for an appeal, I'm not saying I was in the right. I just need to know my feedback has been heard.