Just a chat on the struggle to climb...

Well, here we go...

I just came back to the game after a couple of months. I immediately started climbing last night and played quite a bit today. I moved up a tier, but I ran into the same problem I had a couple of months ago. I keep bottlenecking at Bronze 2. Now, I know this sounds ridiculous to complain about because it is. This is a game, and it's a long way up. So, that is NOT what I'm complaining about. In fact, I'm not really complaining at all, more of just pondering on my thoughts.

I try my hardest to win these games, and there are definite points where I can improve. I can't really help but feel, immediately when I hit Bronze 2, every time this is, that I need to carry my team with a power-carry. Sometimes the feeling gets to this point: I feel like I'm playing with players worse than the previous tiers on my team. I'm not really complaining, I'm pondering how I can work with this.

The last game I had was the epitome and the absolute worst I've had in the past two days, but it just goes to show how arbitrary the players you sit with can be. Last game, I was running support, a role I personally really enjoy. The Miss Fortune was suboptimal, and I don't mean to be rude; but it actually felt like she was lagging all game. She consistently was out of place, such as someone with lag would be. Typically I'm fine with this, and she didn't feed that badly. I struggled to work with her because of the aloofness, but it happens.

Then we have Jax, our jungle. After Miss Fortune perished to the bloody tendrils of the disgusting Draven once, and I believe it was once, I could very well be wrong; he started saying we have a sh-- bot lane and there's no point to playing the game anymore. He ignored our pings and began trolling. Frustrating, but I've come out of it before. The problem, however, is this is combined with a Miss Fortune who can't really even rack up a creep score above 40 in laning phase, then a Tristanna who begins flamming Jax for inting. On top of that, the entire team except for Susan really kept getting caught out.

I try my hardest with these games, it just feels soul-crushing, when it feels like an irresponsible player is on the field. It just becomes fairly difficult to keep playing after seeing a game collapse like this. Over the past two days, I've had games where people have openly said "I am trash and have no idea what I'm doing." I'm not even sure how to end this, as it's more of just a monologue. Perhaps these players could give me energy to push through, or maybe I'm missing something. Whatever the case, it's just a fraction of my consternation that's now on digital paper.