Needing help coping with a ban
I originally posted this on reddit, but I don't know how they would take it, so I'm posting it here in hopes I can get some advice here and maybe if I'm lucky the attention of someone I can actually talk too.
I come to you guys in search of help and advice of some stuff regarding a permanent ban I have, and well I'm just trying to cope with it and maybe try to find a solution to get back into the game. I can cry about how much this game is involved with my social life and how much money I put into the game, but the ban was justified as I haven't been the nicest player in the world. There are excuses I can throw out for why I was behaving the way I was, but the truth is that I sometimes don't know how to keep my mouth shut and play this game as an 'escape from stress', when really its rather terrible for doing so. I sometimes realize my behavior is wrong after I burst out something, and then I jump back in to say 'sorry', but sorry doesn't cut it when you drop the moral of the team and already stain a bad mark onto the game. I'm just sort of asking for advice on how to cope with this and what to do. League has been my primary game and source of entertainment for a while now, and without it; it just kind of hurts. Its going to sound sad when I say this, but a lot of my social life does have activity in regards to this game and without it I just feel empty. I want to ask the League community two things, and thats how do I deal without playing this game? And is there any way I can make an appeal? The games in question where I was 'toxic' were not "go kill urself get cancer" it was more so me whining about stuff like fed yasuo, the team got udyr, or the most recent one was me dragging on a complaint of me hating premades too much. I know the old saying of "its just a game, don't take it too seriously", but this made me break down man, like I'm still shaking over it and its been three or four hours. I'm just looking for some support here from others that have been in the same situation. Thanks to all,
-Rose (Aradia Megido (NA))
I'm really trying to find the right forum for this, I really am trying to seek out help; even if its just someone to talk too. Im not sure this fits in with the rules here, but this is a player calling for some help from others, and even though I'm not entitled to anyone helping me, I really would appreciate it.
. Unfortunately, a couple of months ago, ( I think two now), i was given the temporary ban of 14 days for intentionally throwing a game. During the 14 days I was given plenty of time to think about my actions, and how i could become a better player and have less of a negative impact in games. During the 14 days, i was playing on a smurf account, literally not saying a word in-game to practice better morals, and develop a better sense of tolerance. But, without a doubt, it felt really unsatisfying not playing on my main account. After i was unbanned, i played many games without receiving a single report. I would be pissed off, but i had the **self control ** to stop myself from typing it. There would actually be times where i would be halfway through a disrespectful comment, and i'd cancel the message because i understood the risk of my account being banned permanently. In a situation like this, you should do what i did, and quit the game entirely. I stopped playing video games entirely on the 11th of February because i was literally addicted to League of Legends. I didn't really get much accomplished during my time playing the game. Now that it is the 6th of March, i still have the urge to play, i really do, but it's just another one of those sacrifices that you NEED to make. For the first week that i stopped playing the game, i couldn't stop thinking about it. But now that it's been a month, even my friends have noticed and have implied that i'm less of an asshole, i get more things accomplished, and I am more calm and more sociable. I think that your ban may serve as a lesson. Maybe you should take a break from League of Legends and focus more on other things. Maybe you like music, maybe you're like me and like to draw. Now that i think about it, as much as i "enjoyed" myself playing league of legends, i spent a lot of my time pissed off. Now that i've stopped playing I enjoy doing other things, but i still watch League of Legends videos just to...i don't know... stay updated on one of my favorite games. I think that if you choose to take a long break from the game like i am doing right now, you can develop the courage and trust in yourself over-time to make a new account, and start with a completely new mindset in the future and learn from your past mistakes... I don't know if I should get back into the game again though...
