Had A Sudden Realization

Throughout my years playing this game, it's like a big emotional roller coaster for me. Mainly because of so many losing streaks and putting up with a lot more deaths. Usually, when that happens, I get so ticked off, I went out of control. Then, after that, I get completely depressed. One time, I was so depressed, I had thoughts of... leaving this world.

Anyway, my emotions played a huge number on me. Although, I had a few wins, even thought I thought I don't deserved them. Sometimes, I felt better when I did exceptionally well, meaning got more kills than deaths. Then, most times, I hit a relapse, and even 1 death made me flip out. And, then, I started playing ranked for the first time. I thought it would make my gaming experience easier, but I was dead wrong. I got placed in Bronze 1, but with a series of ranked losses, I got demoted in Bronze 4. I was so freaked out, I tried to seek help everywhere, but I got way too stubborn to see them, let alone hear them.

I held a big grudge for days, weeks, months even. I thought I put those emotions behind me, but not a chance. I felt like all this pent up anger would change me into an ultimate rage monster, destroying everything in sight. It would be Armageddon, it would be the ultimate judgment day, IT WOULD BE DOOMSDAY FOR ALL!

Before then, something happened that gave me a jolt. Something that stopped me from putting all this ultimate madness on me. I know many people talked about it, but a user named Tyler1 just got permabanned, and developers of Riot prevented him from making any more accounts. When a player gets banned, they would have learned their lesson once the ban gets lifted. But some people clearly didn't learn and got permabanned for it. Tyler1 is one of those people. That didn't stop him. He keeps making more and more accounts, and still keeps trolling. One of his accounts got banned again and again and again.

I almost went too far on my emotions and almost got my account banned. Tyler1 did went too far, many times and didn't know if he went too far. And Riot decided, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Tyler1 is out and can never play League again... forever!

And that made me realize something. I know League is just a game, but some people takes this WAY TOO SERIOUSLY! I took it seriously and it almost broke me. Tyler1 must have take this UBER seriously, more seriously then me tenfold. So, I decided to change my ways. Sure, I may be able to get some more losing streaks. Sure, It may take a long time for me to reach my goal to reach Gold in ranked. Sure, I may never fully understand the entire concept of this. But, at least, I will not let my emotions get the better of me, and not end up like Tyler1.