Honor level 0 after 8 months.

Alright Im not trying to complain but i really would like to bring light to this situation. Im usually a really positive player and i dont rage, or flame. I will almost always try to pick up my teammates when tilted and if i start to tilt myself i will mute everyone so i dont even get the chance to flame anyone. However (yes, classic), i went through a really bad phase in my life around 9 months ago. My Gf of 4 years left me and took my 2 puppers in the matter or 3 days. She found someone else and just peaced out with no inclination that she was unhappy. Went into a massive depression and League was my go-to to escape life (sorry for pity party, just backstory on how im not usually a jerk in game) . I raged alot, took out my anger on teammates and flamed almost every game. Got 14 chat restriction and i immediately stopped playing because i didnt want to play league much anymore. Fast forward a month and im finally not carrying my outside life issues into league and i think i have definitely reformed. I get roughly 1-3 honors 80% of my games and i dont rage. Yet i havent climbed out of 0 honor yet. I dont understand. Its probably been like 200 games of being non toxic but i still am labeled at toxic. Its been 8 months! When am i considered reformed? i want to get border, i want to get chests, i want to actually get the perks that i lost. Come on. 8 months and still not ouot of honor 0. Please riot, mercy.