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How can I justify coming back to League?

Mordius·1/12/2018, 3:39:45 AM·2 votes·573 views

It's been 3 months now since I've been perma-banned, And the time away from ranked has helped me clear my head. I have been a player since 2012 and I've come to see now that being stuck in silver repeatedly season after season had taken it's toll on me, and I had become a very toxic player due to my frustration with the ranked system. I'm the kind of player who enjoys changing up what I play, rather than playing the same champion for hundreds of games at a time, I would often play every champ in the game 20+ times before the season ended. My ranked games would be well over 1500 every season.

I can't justify how I behaved previously, but I also find it hard to justify coming back to the game after all the time I put into my previous account. I played League non-stop for 5 years straight. I had spent an absurd amount of money on skins, and an even more absurd amount of hours in-game. To come back and have to start all over is just too overwhelming for me. I truly enjoy league of legends and understand that the competitive nature of the game got the best of me. So whether it be 3 months or 2 years, I can't reconcile with the fact that Riot truly doesn't care about reforming players. The longest ban I ever received prior to my perma-ban was 2 weeks, and In hindsight I can tell you that 2 weeks was not enough time for me to reform myself. I remember the day I was perma-banned I was genuinely surprised, because I had expected a month ban of some sort (I didn't know perma-ban was directly after 2-week ban at the time). So when other players tell me "You were given multiple chances", It genuinely doesn't feel that way. I feels more like I was slapped on the wrist 3 times and then stabbed in the back. With time away from the game, I can honestly say after 3 months my mindset has changed, but that is 3 months riot never gave me.

I haven't lost my love for the game, And if Riot ever decides to give us exiles another chance, I would be happy to give my continued support for the game. But as it stands, I find it hard to justify coming back from such a hefty fall.

11 Comments

Telephone Booth1/12/2018, 5:45:34 AM2 votes

You could think of it like, okay so your account is gone, but you still have everything you learned. You said you were hardstuck silver... well an account switch might be just what you need. Your account had been silver for so long that it became harder to change the average. (For example, I always get placed in bronze and have to climb back to silver. Meanwhile, my new account got placed silver 2)

Honestly, if you still play other games, why not come back? But if league is the only game you played, and you haven't been gaming for 2 months... don't bother coming back.

You got out of an addictive cycle and it's best to just not play video games at all. If I wasn't so addicted to them, I would never play video games. They're purely a waste of time... unless you enjoy them of course, it's the same as any other hobby with no real world consequence. (Like say, if your hobby was wood working, then it does have real life consequences, as you are building things that you use. Video games, once you log off, that's it. No use. No knowledge gained. Just a pure waste of time)

As far as not coming back because of a grudge you hold against Riot... well that's only hurting you, bud. I suggest you try to get over that, because your bitterness really honestly only affects you... and not in a good way. It's in your best interest to accept what you deserved... you were ignorant of the rules and that's on you. Accept it, and move on. I'm still bitter about a gf that cheated on me 4 years ago lol... I feel like it's a similar feeling. And there has been absolutely nothing positive that has come out of my grudge. Only pain for myself... and the unfortunate souls who get mixed up with me.

Danni Chimes1/12/2018, 3:58:25 AM2 votes

Honestly...don't come back. The community degrades quicker than an at home school kid from for grades K-8 coming into high school for the first time in 9th grade.

You'll more than likely become waaaay more frustrated than before you left. Not to mention there are soooooo many trolls/bots/people who don't even care about the game anymore that you'll honestly feel like you aren't toxic in comparison.

Or just do bot matches only. Otherwise...don't come back. Believe me.

If I ever get permabanned ill be eternally grateful.

o brigid o1/12/2018, 3:40:11 PM2 votes

If that's how you feel then you can't justify it.

And that might not be such a bad thing.

  • If being unable to climb the ranked ladder is going to stress you out and cause you to be toxic, you're probably better off not playing. Ranked is full of millions of players, and the majority of them aren't high elo and won't ever be. If you're going to play, do it to enjoy the act of playing, not ranking.

  • If a kid at the dinner table reaches for food before the family is ready to eat, and his mom slaps him on the wrist once to stop him from grabbing it... just once is usually enough to stop him from grabbing it. Being "slapped on the wrist 3 times" should have been more than enough and Riot makes it clear at your 2 week ban that this is your last chance as long as you bother reading your ban message. If you don't bother reading, that's not Riot's fault.

  • If you were spending that kind of absurd amount of time and money on the game, it sounds like it really really wasn't healthy. Especially since it was driving you toward toxicity to a bannable degree. But in general spending that kind of time sitting/staring at a video game isn't good for anyone and you're probably better off not coming back to feed that addiction again. Find better, real world activities to fill your time that don't allow you to exhibit your toxic behavior anymore. Pick up a new hobby, volunteer your time, go to the gym, etc etc.

FOR JUSTICE1/12/2018, 7:19:05 PM1 votes

if you need to justify coming back to a game, its likely that its just not the game for you. the cycle most likely is gonna repeat tbh.

Karunamon1/12/2018, 2:21:31 PM1 votes

I'm the kind of player who enjoys changing up what I play, rather than playing the same champion for hundreds of games at a time, I would often play every champ in the game 20+ times before the season ended. My ranked games would be well over 1500 every season.

Don't take this as BMing, but this is probably why you're stuck in the rank you are. Most people who climb rank stick to a few specific champs, or at least a specific role. (Faker doesn't play support, after all.)

If you find playing lots of different champs more fun, more power to ya, but the tradeoff is probably that you're going to climb slower. Focus on a small handful of champs in a specific role, and I bet you get out of silver faster.

WitchQueen Annie1/12/2018, 4:07:16 AM1 votes

Well rank wise... Silver isn't much of a loss. With a new account, you can easily get Silver back (even high Silver). Its not like you were Diamond and now have to re-climb with a Bronze MMR account.

And who cares about some skins? I play 12+ champs and only skin 2 of them (most of my skins remain unused for entire seasons). Skins are entirely over-rated. The splash arts can be looked at any time and in most cases, the in game models don't live up to the splash and are worse off than Classics.

Unlocking champs is annoying but you only need 1 4800 BE champ to start seriously kicking. Hell, many 450 BE Champs can easily carry on new accounts (ex Annie, Master Yi... they should honestly make Lux 450).

In any event, enjoy the process of starting over again. You get to pick a bunch of familiar champs... and then kick the living teeth out of low elo thugs. Just imagine that you're Batman and you've been exiled from Gotham. Do you suddenly lose all of your powers and training? Hell no. You lose the Bat Cave and all of your gadgets (champions, skins, maybe some runes) but are you not going to kick ass in New York or Los Angeles?

The entire elo of Bronze will tremble in terror as you destroy half of their ranks on your climb back to your rightful elo.

WukongMain1/12/2018, 4:07:27 AM1 votes

If you cant distance yourself from the negatively of the players, Don't come back.

You have to be able to look past their trolling/feeding/raging and blatant lack of humanity. Otherwise shouldn't play :D. it'll cause you too much pain and simply not worth it.