After dealing with a mental health issue, I think I am an ideal candidate for the Reform Experiment

PraytoBasedGod·8/5/2018, 11:40:35 PM·8 votes·6,258 views

Hello all,

During my initial play on this account from season 3-6, I was a toxic player. While in the end I have no one to blame but myself, I do have several tidbits that help add context as to why I felt the way I did, as well as proof of reformation.

Prior to 2016, I was undiagnosed with Bipolar type 2, and needed to spend time in a mental ward. Prior to this, I was completely untreated, and abusing a large amount of substances, including but not limited to Cocaine and Amphetamine, often times playing on them. My behavior in league was a microchasm of my real life struggles, as my girlfriend left me, and I eventually lost my job due to mental instability. Being toxic in league was one of the few things that made me feel powerful during a dark time in my life. Thankfully though, I one day checked myself into a psych ward and got put on medication, along with therapy sessions. To say this changed my life would be downplaying it, as it downright saved it instead.

Two years into medication, and I have never felt more mentally healthy, happy, or overall content. The stressors of unemployment that caused me to lash out are no longer there, as I have a job, and I no longer take drugs. Eventually, I got back into League on a smurf I decided to level up; Mansouri Fatai. Since I have started playing on this account I believe I have only had one minor chat restrict over the course of two years, and frequently get notifications I'm honored more than the majority of players, reaching Honor Level 3 recently. I will never go to far to say I am a saint, I still occasionally can flame and get baited, but overall, I believe I am actually a below average player in toxicity now, and the notifications I get support this.

While I understand that the test roster is full, should it be a success, I would love to be able to use my old account again, as many friends who I have forgot may still play, as well as purchases I made would be restored.

Once again, I am not looking for a get out of jail free card, if Riot looks at my chat history and sees it poorly, I will fully accept not being selected. If it is a success though, I feel I have a high likelihood of rehabilitation, as I have proved that in my new, more clear, mental state, I am a player within the general rules of the LoL community.

5 Comments

disregardable8/5/2018, 11:42:24 PM7 votes

it's closed dude. they picked a small number of people, sorry.

Ripikou8/6/2018, 1:48:45 AM3 votes

I'd probably steer clear of this game. It's a relapse waiting to happen on speed.

NotSoMLG8/6/2018, 12:06:45 AM2 votes

wow you haven't had an easy past 4 odd years. good to see that you seeked help and didnt just ignore the problem. Hopefully you get picked next time round :).

HJTBB8/6/2018, 5:05:33 AM1 votes

Best of luck to you I can’t relate, I’m just an asshole when I’m sober, but it’s a great choice by riot