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League taught me the value of Manners - Thank You Riot

Diamond Frostman·2/5/2016, 2:51:56 PM·18 votes·2,710 views

Hi, my name is Diamond, I am 27 years old and from Great Britain.

My main account was DDWarbird1988 on EUW and I used to be a toxic f**k. I formally apolgise to the league community for my racist and downright insulting comments. I am very quick to anger because I have a form of autism and living with that can make me angry when I fail or lose something because I feel very exposed and embarassed. I am dyspraxic, which is a coordination difficulty which sometimes causes me to thumb my plays and accidentally die, which causes my team to be very unforgiving, its one of the main reason I play long range poke mages because thats the only thing I'm good at.

That is by NO means an excuse, just an explanation.

I can't play melee or assassin champs for shit. So I hate on people who can do it so easily and I shouldn't. I see that now.

Personally, I am very happy that Riot has become intolorant of unacceptable behavior and banned my main and a few of my accounts. Although my rage is still not completely under my control but I am a hell of a lot better now then I was. I lost my best friend because of this game and I didn't stop to think how he was feeling before I made some spiteful comment just after his mother died in a game. So I deserved him running away from me.

I missed him a lot but I continued on this game because I wanted to be a better person. I want to be able to take loss and just shrug it off like most people do. I just wanted to make Riot aware that I genuinally felt my behavior in the past has been rude, racist and unacceptable. When I am angry, I say things that I don't mean and I don't actually believe that people from Europe is inferior.

AA says that admitting you have a problem is the first step towards change. I admit I have a problem with rage and self-loathing and being toxic but I am slowly but surely changing that. I have a new account, got all the way up to level 20, started by muting everyone and I'm slowly getting back to letting my chat stay open again.

Sorry, I know nobody will care but I just want to make Riot know that I respect them immensely and your game has taught me some precious life lessons and the significance of friendship and trust.

19 Comments

RiotRiot Kid Ronnie2/5/2016, 8:05:10 PM17 votes

Wow. Thanks for your hard work in acknowledging and changing your behavior -- I know it isn't easy. I've sat here for nearly ten minutes trying to think of a way to properly express my gratitude for your honesty and openness, but nothing I type seems to sum it up quite right. I almost deleted my post when I couldn't think of anything better to say, but I really want you to know that I care, and that some days, stories like yours are what keeps me going. So, thank you for sharing, and for working to make yourself a more positive influence in the community. We really do appreciate it, from the bottom of our hearts. :) Fistbump

Void Nargacuga2/5/2016, 11:11:31 PM4 votes

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Its great to see that your are seeing what you were like before was not liked and are doing your best to improve yourself! Of course it will probably take some time though but keep at it! [slayer-pantheon-thumbs]

Omega T33mo2/5/2016, 2:57:47 PM3 votes

nice mayne. My main account got perm'd a while back to and ive been a lot less toxic since then

LadyParallel2/5/2016, 3:22:37 PM3 votes

Given ur history in both EUW and NA boards of lying constantly, xenophobic comments and hatred towards players, riot, champions and random people aka foreigners as u call them, excuse me if I'm a little skeptical of this sudden change when just an hour ago you were still attacking riot or as u once called them: "American pigs"

nerak232/5/2016, 2:57:33 PM2 votes

Sorry, I know nobody will care but I just want to make Riot know that I respect them immensely and your game has taught me some precious life lessons and the significance of friendship and trust.

Actually I care as corny as that sounds ! I feel posts like these are very important and I appreciate you putting this out here.

I wish I had some hints to help you on your way to stay in this state of mind, but I just can't think of much more then what you have learned for yourself.

Truly, Good Luck friend.

Surgespace2/5/2016, 4:35:50 PM2 votes

I'm glad you're making this realization on your own but it should be your parents that taught you those things and simple common courtesy that is necessary for real life.

Xenophobic, racists, bigoted comments are a new level of toxicity rather than "you're bad" toxicity.

It's a show of a real life issue through a screen. I'm glad you're learning but I suggest actually learning the history and perhaps read up on the history of nations and people and you will find out. We're all just human and segregation is only in place to maintain capitalism and monetary gains for Countries. So they implement a strong right wing stance for nationalism preservation.

Diamond Frostman2/5/2016, 2:59:15 PM1 votes

Thank you guys, It is lovely to see some support and some positivity on the boards. I still hate LeeSin though, but at least now I hate the champion, not the player. I never want to be like XJ9.

Straw Hat Loki2/6/2016, 1:50:19 AM1 votes

Best of luck to you mate. I hope you get to the stage where you will have a more complete control over your triggers and will be able to shrug off things which annoy/anger you.

Acknowledging you have an issue and then resolving it is a great beginning and you know what they say about beginnings: "Well begun is already half done!"

[slayer-pantheon-thumbs]

Diamond Frostman2/6/2016, 2:13:10 AM1 votes

Oh I forgot to mention, that my name is Diamond, NOT because of League and not because I want that rank but its my Fursona name that I have used for every account on every game I've ever had. I originally used the name long before I actually knew that League existed. I apologise if that could seem confusing or if I'm overestimating my ability. Thank you to everyone who has given positive words of encouragement, I have really appreciated it.