There's being Smug then there's being Humble
Recently, I was just called out for being smug towards my opponents with games that I win and toxic for the ones I lose. Now we all know the bump and grind of solo queue and dynamic ranked games, it isn't easy and sometimes will find that inner rager inside all of us. We end up slamming curses, blaming others and overly frustrate ourselves to the brink of giving up.
But it's during the games that we win, where we truly shine our inner demon. I was told to report my top lane opponent, Fiora, for ignoring team fights. However, the one or two team fights that she was in - they would always win and end with a good push on our towers. So I said I couldn't report her in that sense. "She loss to a Karma." Me. I outplayed her, there's no denying that sense. I'm a mage and ranged while she's a fighter and melee, I'm going to win early lane with zoning her from farm. So again, I told them no, it wasn't her problem that she loss her lane to me.
I was then told I was being smug about it. It's not being smug, I had my reasons to not report her in any way they were wanting me to do so. They even went as far and said she denied the request to back when my team was sieging their inhibitors. But Fiora was pushing top lane so hard, she nearly made it to our inhibitor turret - had we not backed and went for Elder Dragon, she would of had a successful push. So once more, I gave them a no.
And by this time, my team had already left the channel and I was left with the Enemy Jungler Kha'zix and his supposed AD carry Yasuo. Kha'zix started to get worse at this point and started calling me slurs for just being humble in my winning and not reporting a player who ultimately didn't make stupid decisions that costed them games. Their team had no range was their first problem, or at least their Vlad who laned against our Azir - a pure counter. Now, just a side note - they were a 4-man pre-made team because my team had one too. So I had to assume Fiora was like me, the solo-queue type of person.
Kha'zix tells me he's sorry that I'm this type of way. But I'm really not and here's why. I'm humble in my winnings and humble in my losses, I don't take nothing for granted with League of Legends. Because I can always be better and there's always going to be that game that pus
hes you to an extent you can't reach. So you just have to play it as long as you can, gain whatever ground you can get and learn for the next game.
But you're probably saying: "Oh, sure, Fawksy, take the high road and be the better person - you can't tell me you haven't screamed at other players." And to that I say, "You're damn right." I've yelled at my team mates, called them names and been toxic to them. But it's a human thing to recognize stupid decisions and it's another to tell someone how you feel when it's too much stupidity. You blame others and they'll either take it and learn from it or they'll ignore you and stay in that same position every game - never to rise the ranks. It's understanding versus ignorance and sometimes, more than most, find ignorance bliss.
I can say that I will never quit this game, it's too fun for me and there's an imaginary goal in my mind that I want to hit Gold this year before the end of season. Can I do it? Maybe, I don't know - but that's not going to stop me from playing and learning more. What if I don't make my goal by the end of this season? Then I'll continue between the small amount of time between the next season bettering my skills and enjoy the simple silver border around my champion on the load-in screen. And when next season finally arrives, I'll be back in the heavy mode of getting better.
Hope to see you on the battlefield some time soon!
~FawksyMama
