Social anxiety

So I am very poor. I was born in a poor family in one of the most poverty stricken states in north america. Bad things happened to my family when I was young. But I'm not the only one, I know. I know that many of you reading this will understand what I have to say, and many of you will not. I'm 22 years old, unemployed, and have social anxiety. Every day I play 3 ranked games and stay in bronze. Down from my previous 14 games per day. You see my computer broke when I was mid way through learning the fundamentals of the game. This has all been in the last year. Obviously that sucks but I was set on getting a new computer for myself. Before I even had a chance I was given a very shitty laptop which is only capable of reaching a max of 30 fps at the start of the game which can plummet to 4 fps at the 25 minute mark. And I settled for it. I still play games on this piece of shit. No more. I was afraid of working at some shit job in wv. I was afraid of falling in line to get to where I want to go. No more. I will not let anxiety control me any longer, and neither should you. If you want to climb you have to treat yourself like a humble king/queen. You need the best equiptment. You need enough food. You need to be social and face your fears. You need to believe it when someone calls you handsome or beautiful. You DESERVE it. If you want to be a challenger player. Treat yourself like one. Keep your house clean. Work hard. Practice every day. Do things that will build a happy, balanced life for you. If you're anything like me I just wanted to say I believe in you. You can do it. I know I can. So you can too. Trust me. Stay fierce.