Part of reform experiment, won't recieve rewards but doesn't mean I'm quiting

I was permanently banned 3 months ago, however the Rioter i spoke to offered me a second chance at keeping my account. Since then I managed barely managed to reach honor level 2 (peaking at honor level 1 checkpoint 2) and was told that despite being so close I would receive rewards. It doesn't bother me though lol, because to be quite honest the stigma of how it feels to be permanently banned put me in check and since then I never flame and for the most part mute all. I won't get rewards this season because I didn't know how to act, but at least next second when I'm honor level 5 and Diamond I'm guaranteed an even greater reward.