I want to Reform, I want to change, and I want to be a better member of the community. HELP ME :(
I am a very sarcastic individual who assumes that because I type something, people will see it as such. I would truly appreciate some honest feedback, tips and suggestions towards where I go from here.
I recently just got off a two week suspension.(Literally Today - within the last few hours) I received no chat logs and I got no email explaining the ban, HOWEVER; I am fully aware that I am no saint and when I think back to a few games I played, I am not shocked as to why I received this. I'm tired of being a douche when I don't intend to be, and I'm tired of making others feel bad when they play this game. I want to reform.
I would like to reform. Badly. I am aware that this will take time, as I am aware that it will take effort. I do not intend to behave the way I did before this suspension again. In fact, I did a slight google search on what happens during a two week suspension and a FEW cases turned out to be pushed towards a permanent ban during the suspension period. It's safe to assume I was paranoid, but I was also confident that I wouldn't get banned because I don't do what I do every game. HOWEVER, that is clearly no excuse, and if this was a post about me being perma-banned and asking the community as to why and explaining that riot is so unfair, I would be a laughing stock.
When I got my first chat restriction I knew I was doing something wrong but I never wanted to admit to it. You would think getting 3 chat messages + 1 every few minutes would be enough to silence a toxic individual, but in some cases it's just not enough. I'm glad I received the suspension because I know where I stand in the community. I am the 1% that is toxic and I will be the ONE to change today.
I have had cases where teammates would type in all chat; "report champ A for toxic" .... "report champ B + C, both afK" and even enemy teams would say "Hey can you report champ D please? super toxic". Now, I assume that the report system is misused when chat logs like these come up, considering you are soliciting to get someone's account punished, BUT if there is proof against that person, then the reports work. Two wrongs do not make a right; just because someone is toxic to you doesn't mean you have the right to retaliate. I ain't trying to Pope John Paul ii this forum. There are things I do not understand when conducting myself in a league game, and I can't bother to read FAQs atm because I'm happy I got my account back.
(For Those who read this far vvvvvvvv )
Where do I go from here? How do I avoid reports in their entirety? What can I do to show riot that I am changing and learning from my punishment? Does the honor system even work anymore? ... cause I used to have the red and eventually blue ribbons on my account before my FIRST chat restriction(People seem to look towards the report button more often) I was never given an email towards the reason of my ban, is my account under surveillance? Was this ban Manual? I did not receive a chat log restriction upon logging in .... will it appear the next time I log in? And Finally ... during my reform Would FALSE REPORTS WARRANT A PERMANENT BAN FOR ME? What behavior in-game would be considered Non-reportable?
These questions prove I'm paranoid. I want to change and I will make the effort. I just want to be sure that everything moving forward goes well. I shouldn't even be complaining about not receiving chat logs anyway. I am fully aware of what warranted this suspension and the last thing I need is Riot giving "second thoughts" about my account. Thanks for the feedback and let's make the Rift a better place!
