Well.. i recently got perma banned, and i have some things to say (respectfully)

So, a bit of backstory first, I was playing yesterday and this one guy stole my lane and claimed he didn't, but that's not what really upset me, we have all played with trolls before, what really upset me is that nobody had my back even though i clearly called the lane first, nobody has his back either though, nobody really had much of an opinion at all..

But anyways, i decided to go jungle because i didn't want to argue (funny right), i'm doing poorly, and out of nowhere i just get insanely upset, and before i know it, my fingers are mashing keys faster than my brain is telling them to. I don't even remember thinking about what to respond to what he was saying, i just sorta did.

I told the enemy team to report him for "being a lane stealer" and he pleaded the fifth, saying he didn't steal my lane, and that in fact I was the troll in this game. Since nobody on my team had really anything to say about it, other than my score was trash, and his was descent, They believed him. Which just so happened to push me over the edge. I started arguing with their team, with my team, Blaming everybody except myself, I even died a couple of times just trying to get that last insult in before the argument was over. Honestly now thinking back i should have just kept them muted, but curiosity got the best of me so i wanted to see what they were saying, telling myself, "no its okay, i wont respond, just look" Of course that didn't hold much water as i instantly saw something i didn't like and flamed the guy for it.

Now i do realize that i was a complete dick in this game, i realize that i should have learned from the chat restriction. What i do not realize is why i was Permanently banned. Yes, Permanently, Not even for 2 weeks or anything just straight up gone, My account, all the good times that happened, all the bad, my first penta kill, my last penta kill, the first time i ever played yasuo, and instantly fell in love..

League of legends was my life for the better part of 4 years. I don't know what i will do without it, It helped with my depression, playing with my friends and talking about recent games i've played. All the money i wasted on this game, Now i could buy a better phone with. And all for what? Listen, I know i do not deserve to be unbanned, i will probably just make a new account, and hopefully i will have learned from this mistake. But if someone can explain to me why i was permanently banned, instead of being banned for 2 weeks, it would mean the world to me. Thanks for reading, Sam