I am not a toxic player.

Edit: I'm really sorry I'm long winded. I don't notice it that much. I should've just made a quick, concise point then rambled on. I'll try to add a paragraph to the beginning shortly. I'm typing on a phone. And the comments have actually helped me think.

I've been playing since right after Jinx's release in season 4. I'm not a toxic player. I've never had any bans or restrictions. I don't troll people. I try not to ruin the game. But I messed up and argued with toxic players a few times. It's easy to ignore when I'm playing alone, but when I'm playing with my fiance or my real life friends, it upsets me to see someone mistreat them and makes it a little harder to hold my tongue. But 90% of the time, I still do. That's years of me not being toxic. Years. During the times where it felt like reports didn't matter and we just had to tolerate trolls and verbal abuse.

So why are you judging me by what I have to assume is a couple of bad games? Games that were toxic without me saying anything. And I have to assume a couple because I was only sent one chat log. Which I can't believe that earned me the title of toxic, a chat restriction, and a ban for an undetermined amount of time from crafting from that one game. I never even got a warning.

I accept the chat restriction because I shouldn't let people get under my skin and I can come across as pretty intense when that happens. I was being a jerk to someone that was treating the whole team like they were idiots and it got out of hand. Doesn't help that I have a dark sense of humor and a colorful vocabulary which usually causes me to be really good at being a jerk. Plus the fact that said jerk went to all chat first and told them to report me for being toxic and was so fake polite in all chat. So that part of the punishment makes sense for the most part. Though I feel like a non automated system would've let me slide. But not the hextech ban.

I'm not a bad player. I'm not toxic. I don't need to reform. And I'm so genuinely upset that I'm being treated like a toxic player all of a sudden, that I haven't been able to sleep in 2 days. I just keep seeing that message at the end of every game... Maybe I take this game too seriously. But I don't have much else to do these days, and I'm actually good at this game. And the hextech crafting gave me some sense of accomplishment.

Please Riot, don't judge me for being too weak to not feed the trolls all the time. I'm not a perfect player. And I do make mistakes. But I'm not toxic. And I don't ruin the game for anyone. When I play alone, I just listen to music and the only response I tend to give to trolls is me saying "mmk" when they tell me to go kill myself and that I'm trash at the game.

And for what it's worth, I'm not arguing with anyone anymore. I'm afraid to even make friendly banter with the enemy team now, which to my knowledge isn't toxic behavior. Im just afraid to type anything anymore.

May I suggest making the hextech ban a repeat offense kind of thing. Like the first time it's just the chat restrictions, then the second time it's the restrictions with the hextech ban. It will get the point across to the really toxic players, while not upsetting a nontoxic player who is just having a bad time and just needs the wake up call of the chat restriction. Just knowing that I got reported for toxicity was bad enough for me. Seriously, Riot, all you needed to do was warn me and I would've modified my practices even if I didn't think it was much of an issue. Not everyone's sensibilities are the same.