How much longer do I have to deal with myself...
Hello! Once again, Riot, and the community. I know I have reached the ultimate level of being annoying, but how can I keep living like this. Not a day that goes by where the thought of my unbanned account crosses my mind. Yes, it's that crazy! LOL, it makes me laugh at times because it "just a game." But no, it's so much more. It's almost a way of life, unbelievable. I watched the video of Marc and Brandon reflecting on the past ten years of their beginning with the company. In a way it made me look back on my time with league.
As a newcomer in season 3, I just started playing because I was bored and then I got my friends into it. This marked one of the greatest days of my life, me and best friend almost played everyday with one another. We played a 2 hour bot game once when we were just some low level noobs LOL. After hitting level 30 and moving onto ranked. It was all fun, we had so many laughs and in season 3 I wasn't really toxic. It was in season 4, I had become much more competitive, I was so close to gold and I just wanted it. The days I would be tilted, I would continue playing and when I got mad, unfortunately I got toxic... This led to me getting banned for 2 weeks and not receiving my gold season 4 rewards.
I overlooked that and then came season 5. Season 5 I was more into the game than ever since I had gotten diamond and I played nearly everyday! Just like the season before, I was competitive AF, got mad at "noobs" and that caused me to get banned again. That resulted in me not getting Diamond rewards for season 5. Like an idiot, I overlooked the ban and continued with the SAME attitude in season 6. I got banned for 2-weeks somewhere around in march this year.
Since i was banned for 2-weeks several times in the past, I thought I would never get permabanned. So I continued with the poor behavior and thinking I was invulnerable... Then came April 1st, the day I got banned forever. It hit me hard, and still to this day I regret it all. Thinking of all the Rioters who put in their utmost effort to make this game the way it is today, it's amazing. Getting permabanned changed me, for the greater good. Given multiple chances and still not reforming is probably the dumbest thing I have ever done.
It's been months since I was banned, my smurf is just not appealing to me. All of my legacy skins on my main account are gone and everything I had done is all gone. In ways I am thankful for getting permabanned, it changed me for the greater good :). But now that I'm changed, all I can do is just be sad and feel regretful for what I had done in the past. Riot, and to the community as a whole, I deeply apologize for what I used to be. Can a one-time special chance be given for someone like me who has tried his hardest? I will work hard to strive in ranked like always, but with a different approach. Instead of shouting/flaming at the people who aren't performing well in my games. I will instead be a helping hand. I, King Weiner II, begs for another chance.
