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I am toxic, because...

Dakkimchi·7/23/2017, 12:49:33 AM·5 votes·802 views

I recently got a 14-day ban due to my toxicity against my midlaner. I also ranted and blamed riot for my punishment in my recent post, and I realized now that I was immature for thinking that other people's toxicity could justify mine. Right now, I'm playing norms in another account I made few days ago (lvl 10), and I calmed down now. I am probably still toxic if I'm in a ranked situation, so I will fix it to the best of my abilities.

Besides my apology to Riot (regardless of the fact if they read it or not), I also want to share why I became this way. I realized that the way I play is not only wrong, but also unhealthy. I started playing League in Season 7, but I probably spent as much time as people who played for a few years. On op.gg, it says I have played 1239 ranked games this year. The midlaner I played with looked me up and made fun of me. I was really angry because of that, but he did have a point. Why did I play this much? Including the normal draft and blind games I have played to get to lvl 30, I have played more than 1500 games of league. I also watch LCS for entertainment and youtube videos to get better at the game. The game became an obsession for me. I was heavily addicted to the game, and this also affected my life (college and family).

And the reason for my toxicity is probably an inferiority complex. I played so much games of league, but why am I still silver? Why did I spend so much time playing League when my friends only played about 500 at most? I'm not going to say I should be challenger, but shouldn't I be at least gold for the amount of games I played? This thinking led me to become delusional. Although I thought I wasn't toxic, I started blaming people I played, the shit luck I have in ranked, etc. etc. Finally, I reached a point where I needed a break from ranked-- and a 14-day ban is probably a blessing in disguise. Even though I am going to play normal games in another account, I am not going to spend all-nighters trying to rush lvl 30. I thought about it, but it's just repeating the cycle again. Although I love League, I seem to get more toxic the more I play this game. So after this weekend, I am going to stop playing normals too. I need to focus on other things in life, and I'm not going to ruin it by playing another 1500 games in a single season.

That's the end of my rant, and if you guys have any experiences or advices to share, please give them to me. Thank you in advance! Good luck in solo queue :D.

21 Comments

The Ender Cobra7/23/2017, 12:51:46 AM2 votes

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Sp33d Zer07/23/2017, 12:55:36 AM1 votes

Honestly, you are likely still silver because you have a lack on knowledge on micro and macro play. An emphasis on those would be beneficial to you.

Bobbinson7/23/2017, 2:03:59 AM1 votes

that's right youre silver not cause youre toxic but cause youre bad lmao

SuicideAll7/23/2017, 2:13:21 AM1 votes

Always in moderation.

Even too much food, water, or air will kill you.

Cowseed7/23/2017, 2:53:06 AM1 votes

Quality over quantity dude.

Doing the same things the same way all the time won't acomplish much. Learn from each game and don't just see them as losses and wins look at them more individually

And take a break sometimes. For some people their skills develop during the breaks between what they want to get better at.

DONT NEEEED TEAM7/23/2017, 3:02:27 AM1 votes

chat logs ?

Squiter7/23/2017, 7:40:39 AM1 votes

As a person who mostly deals with toxic people in Silver 4 ELO all day, I'm proud to say that even though I'm not 'toxic' myself, being nice actually helps see that the people we would originally argue with profusely, become these whining little children in a wolf's costume. I don't play ranked much, and I don't really even play normals. I just use my main account to do ARAM all day because I have a ton of champions and not enough time to spend with toxic people in norms.

My worst comes out when They talk about others, if i'm seeing another person get thrashed by toxicity I'll step in and try to get them to thrash on me instead; even make some friends out of defending them in the midst of chaos. I'll say some crude things if they really go across the line, and there have been points where i lost my cool and I'll admit it (one guy was legit dead-set about sona being ad since 'auto-attacks scale off ad'. Don't even know why that got to me, but just the way he treated us, o boy.) But i'd apologize if i was given the chance. Hell, I've apologized once or twice before to someone because i annoyed them by making references to some games/movies most of the game with the enemies.

Would like to add; that this new honor system? Has been an actual incentive to keep my good behavior up, and strive for higher honor ranks. I know i can get there, getting honored 2-3 times a game with an occasional 4 like this. But regardless; League has become a fun time spender to me. I play ARAM with some friends, make new ones and chat. No amount of toxicity is going to take my fun away just because someone can't hold their Centimeter peter in check.

If you want to be honorable, comedic, and tilting at the same time? "Remember summoner! Cussing is frowned upon in league, even with a chat filter!" Just say the tool-tips before the games to them. Most don't even know what to say, and best part is you'll get a chuckle just for saying it; instantly putting you in a better mood.

Rain00192847237/24/2017, 3:02:10 PM1 votes

That's an interesting story. I can prob coach you to gold and tell you exactly what you need to be doing. People might rebuttal this but it doesn't matter if teammates feed, you can carry 1v5. People think it's to get really fed and kill everyone, rather it's the opposite. Anyway, if your ever feeling the opportunity, hmu.