Im Sorry for my disgusting behaviour i just want one more chance (sorry for my bad english to) oce

I want to start off by saying I know what I have done,Im have been a toxic player in the past few weeks and more and received ban after ban and chat restriction after chat restriction I was abusive I was rude my attitude was disgraceful and im ashamed for the actions I have done and for it to come to this point where I am permbanned and for me to realizewhat Im doing, Again sincerely sorry from the bottom of the heart for what i have done and realise that its might be to late and a perm ban is enough for me, no toxic attiude is allowed even if its towards ur friends in game or people you don't know, Im very sorry for the trouble I caused and should have stop and been aware a long time

ago...Well this toxic behaviour started from 1-2month back when I was having alot of family problems...Wont go into detail but divorce,fights and alot of things were happening in my life and the constant changing of places was taking the toll and life was very diffcult for me and alot of anger was built up through out the day and I would realise it on leagueoflegends which is disgusting and unfair to the leauge community that I had loved, but i hadnt realised it then when all of this was happening so I got ,ban after ban I kept on doing this..until i got a 2 week ban, over those 2weeks I tryed to first of take a break from leauge try to fix my life and communicate with my parents and family memebers and try to build my life back up after all the things that were going on and even my friends noticed that i had changed and my attiude in game on leauge of legend so i tryed to reform and was trying to be a better person on leauge and think of the quote "If you have nothing good to say dont say it" and "dont say anything if your grandmother wouldnt want u to say it" and this sunday I got unbanned and i reformed and got better and you can see in the chat logs through out monday and late sunday i was trying to be better and wasnt being toxic to my teammates and soon realised being kind to them is a better way to get around this then being a toxic asshole but today morning i was having a worked up day at home and should have calmed down before playing leauge but instead of that I just went online on leauge and played with my friends and ingame i was being a asshole to my friends and making some banter jokes with them they took it by the chin and i was in the moment and if u see my chat log all that was banter to my friend which i shoudlnt have done but it was just banter not meant to be rude or anything..I know what i have done wrong and Im forever sorry and indebt for that all im asking is for one chance and one chance only for you to take me back into the community i loved and spent 2 years being part of all the youtube comunity I love and the tournaments i watched this was my game and invited all my friends to play with me and to end my league of legend carrer like this as a toxic asshole is sad its heartbreacking and if you give me one more chance ill do everything to be kind and not be influced by peer pressure by my friends to say rude things Im forever in debt and woud only like one more chance either way i would say thank you for everoyne in the leauge community for the fun you have gave me and the friends i have gained and the people behind league and everoyne in the leauge community ty for making my 2 years a whole load better gl in the future and with a tear in my eye i would like to say good bye to the leauge community for the last time,Their is no exuce for toxity I should have known it might be to late but thx you for the game.....Im sorry.............. Happy Holidays:)

Edit: heres my disgusting chat log to my friends that got me banned :( http://imgur.com/a/5c8W4

Edit: Riot confirmed a no through email i guess idk what to do know everything going down hill in my life...