Public Apology & Request to Be Reported

Alien Shoes·8/4/2019, 11:34:44 AM·1 votes·2,064 views

I said something I shouldn't have about a dominating Tryndamere split pusher on enemy team. He was just being a general Tryndamere %%%%, nothing unusual, but I said I wished I could cut off his right hand. I meant it in reference to just the character, but now I feel like I should be banned for that. Please give me a chat restriction or a 2 week ban, or tell me to turn myself into the cops or something. Apologizing just doesn't feel like enough. I should be punished for saying something that heinous, even as a Tryndamere right arm voice line joke. I'm sorry that that champion makes me so upset. I'm sorry that I irrationally dislike Marc Merrill purely because of his summoner name being that champion. I hate myself and need a psychologist. :/

7 Comments

Sona Ping8/4/2019, 12:26:14 PM4 votes

Asking to be punished is a way to resolve and escape your feelings about it. Instead of trying to dodge out on it by looking for a punishment, accept it. Deal with it by trying to be better than your standard you didn't match.

Imperial Pandaa8/4/2019, 11:55:51 AM3 votes

Submit a support ticket if you feel like you should recieve a punishment. Although, if they reported you it is probably already countinf towards a punishment.

kyoyaoaaa8/4/2019, 12:03:46 PM2 votes

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Telephone Booth8/6/2019, 3:10:15 AM2 votes

I hope you find peace. Self loathing can be pretty damaging over time, trust me, been doing it for about 8 years now and its a bit of a downward spiral, even after acknowledging it. I cant get out of the spiral. I cant just trick me into loving myself. I can barely look people in the eyes anymore because I'm such an unworthy piece of shit. I need a psychologist too but thatd be such a pussy move in my fucked up head that i wont even allow myself help. So i hope you allow yourself the help you need. A punishment from a video game wont fix it. Who gives a fuck about a video game when you wake up with a sense of despair. Like, oh great, another shit day in this shit life. What will I do today? Oh the same thing ive done the past 2000 days. Nothing will change. Ill just go to work, go home, play video games, go to bed, and repeat. Oh whats that? Another day with no texts? No phone calls from anyone? I remember waking up to texts from friends... ya that was kinda nice. Didnt realize it at the time. But after a couple years of less and less communication with people, things start to get a bit lonely. But its my fault. I did this. I didnt feel like going out too many times, so the invites slowly ceased. I would love an invite, even though i wouldnt actually want to go to whatever im being invited to, because I hate everything. What am i looking forward to anymore? Another relationship with some girl who loves her image she puts out on social media? Whos into everything normal people are into, that i happen to hate all of? Will she just end up cheating on me like the last one? Thats why i push them away. 3 decent women, and noooo I gotta just fuck em and then make excuses why I dont want to date them. Then they move on, get married, have kids... and im stuck with regrets and self loathing. Why would I date them though? So we can go places I dont like together? Fuck that. I just want to play video games, and stay in the comfort of my apartment. Sure, she can come over and watch nnetflix with me, thats awesome. But then its "come to my family's event", "lets go to this place or that place", "you have to get up early so we can go camping" ... nah, its just not worth it. I used to think I would change eventually. But nothing has changed. Nothing at all. Just a real life groundhogs day for years and years.

Sorry what were you saying? Something about insulting someone in a video game?

PnkRaptr8/4/2019, 2:32:07 PM1 votes

Different people need different things. The fact that this was written and posted, basically means whether this is real or fake, We should realise that different types of people with different outlooks and problems play this game. A "bad" player should be punished for their acts but at the same time there should be some system to further help these players get a better mental state.

TBH if riot added a system where after noticeably being tilted you received a notification that advised you to take a break or calm down in a polite and caring way im 100% sure alot less players would be suspended or banned.

Idk if my comment was politically correct but thanks for the forums