Honor feels grindy

I haven't played in.. a very long time. I think since January. I was banned two weeks in November of last year. I haven't been toxic since. Of course, that's easy to say, but since I can't provide chat logs of every single game I've played you'll just have to take my word. In any event, I'm still at honor level 0 (checkpoint 2) after plenty of games where I haven't been toxic and even gone out of my way to encourage others to just relax and not get tilted.

Now I'm gonna keep doing what I'm doing, cause I'm not doing it for rewards (I honestly forgot about the honor system when i got back on and only realized I was still at 0 because of ranked rewards) but nonetheless it is rather discouraging. I spent an entire ranked season at honor 0 with no indication of what's affecting my progress to 1 or 2. Furthermore, having a level 1 seems unnecessary if there's no rewards for it. Who cares about reaching level one? Big whoop, you need two to get season rewards. I know this board isn't gonna fix the problem but I just thought I'd let me feelings me known.

Naturally, people will say it's deserved. To some extent, yeah, of course, but how long do you think players should get punished? I've been banned, I've had my rewards stripped, and I've been stacking hextech chests for a while with no end in sight. At what point am I reformed by Riot's standards? Again, I'm not trying to meet their standards, I'm only meeting mine by not being a toxic buttlord to people and trying to be positive to everyone in the game instead. It's just annoying knowing that I won't be getting season rewards I guess. Hopefully, HOPEFULLY, by next year this time I'm at honor 2, but it doesn't really feel like it. And if I'm refused ranked rewards for TWO seasons in a row because of ONE ban TWO years prior, that's kind of insane to me.