My name is Daniel. I've played League of Legends off and on for nearly 6 years. I made it to low gold, but I was always trash at the game.

That was okay to me, I was fine with that. But I also raged a lot, I raged to the point where I lost my main account and the hundreds of dollars worth of skins and literally thousands of hours worth of IP and progress over raging at a guy who was raging at me for screwing up during champion select.

Maybe I wasn't okay with that.

Anywho.

I was playing a ranked game, working on getting my rank back up to gold during my promos, I had fallen to Silver I the day before after having a large loss streak that dropped me down to SIlver (For the third time in the season.) and I was upset about that, I had lost the previous game and had joined a new game as a jungler, I had been drinking a little bit and was ready to play.

The problem was that I forgot to get my smite.

So as soon as I enter the game, I immediately get complaints. the classic "omg we lost" and whatnot. One dude in particular was vocal about it, and kept egging me on it, and next thing I know I ended up starting a raging argument with the guy, saying that it was unfair of him to roast me so hard for an honest mistake, and that he shouldn't be so harsh on me.

He on the other hand, called me out on my mistake, saying that I should've afk'd when the game started to force a /remake.

This argument continued in this vein for most of the game, before I finally lost it and started to use racial language and threats against this person, whom I didn't know and who I will never see again, before ragequitting because at that point, I couldn't stand to be in the game anymore, I wasn't having fun, they weren't having fun, nobody was having fun except the other team who was basically given a free win by my mistake, our argument and the quitting of our midlaner and toplaner.

After I left, I proceeded to complain in a chatroom that I frequent about my game, only to see that riot suspended my account indefinitely for my inflammatory speech, and that my account was for all intents and purposes, banned.

As I said before, I've spent untold amounts of money, time and effort into playing this game, learning it, and getting better of it, so it was a shock to see what had happened. Mind you, I was never a model player by any means, I trolled, I flamed, I left games from time to time(often not of my own accord, mind you, for a while my computer was not in a very good place.) but I never expected to be banned for this one argument, as I had many like this in the past, and I have had many incidents in the past, but had never been chat restricted or anything of that nature. The worst I've had was some incidents in the past with the delayed queue thingy due to some AFK's that I'd have off and on due to things such as real life, or computer issues.

I'm still in shock. I made a new account for the game and will likely level it up as time goes on, as this game has become a part of my life to the point that I attempt to fit my schedule around it as much as I can, often spending as much time as I can on it after my job (I work 12 hour shifts six days a week in the agriculture industry, so my time is limited, thus puts more pressure on me to play well, and when I don't, well, I feel like I'm letting people down, and I can't stand that.)

This is not a plea to Riot to unban my account. This is me telling my story to people so that they don't make the same mistake I have. I love this game and treasure the many hours that I have spent on it, I've had many great times, and many bad times with untold amounts of tilt and anger, often to the point of breaking keyboards and other such things, and worrying my family about my mental wellbeing caused by my bouts of personal rage over things that happen in the game. I do not regret these, as they'd have happened with some other game, it just so happened that I took league seriously enough to make it happen to me on it, for better or worse.

I will likely continue to play this game on this new account, level it to 30 and go back into ranked to see how much I've learned from this situation. I'm still sick to my stomach, but I know that I've made a mistake, and from that mistake I'll learn something, and I hope that people learn from my mistake as well, but I also know that my story is hardly unique, but I felt as though I needed to say something anyway.

Yours Truly.

Heretekdan.

EDIT: If this isn't where this sort of post should be, I ask one of the mods to move it. I don't post on the forums often. Thank you.