I can't play this game anymore.
I've been playing this game since roughly Season 3 came out. It's been a game that I've loved, and I've loved watching it come the distances it came. I've never been good at this game, but it's always been fun regardless. The thing that I can't stand is the community; not as a whole but there is definitely some really bad apples. With work and my school schedule I can't play unless its super late at night. I only get a few hours to play usually and it seems like every match I get into is just full of the worst people I've ever played with mentality-wise. These people just get SO toxic and they tilt me just from seeing their team chat, I've tried /mute all every single match and it's ended up blocking out my ability to communicate with my team. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not innocent here, I just can't help myself. When someone gets into the chat and starts acting that hostile towards random people it just gets to me, and I wish I had the self control to just ignore it, and to just walk away from that by ignoring them but I don't. My last game I disconnected early and said some pretty terrible things, I can't take that back and honestly if I get banned it's only a loss of a lot of money and time, but its not undeserved. I guess I'm just making this discussion to vent, but I can't even seem to have fun playing this game anymore, and that makes me really sad. All my friends who I used to play with have moved on, and queuing by myself just seems to be so toxic for me.
I guess I kind of hope that if someone has had some similar experiences, maybe they can shed some light on ways I can improve on not being so easily "triggered" by them. As a veteran of the game, who's seen it change a WHOLE lot, this is probably the goodbye. I'll probably get perma'd for my behavior in my last match anyway, and incase anyone in that match sees this or just in general anyone whos been affected by it sees this, I apologize openly.
TL;DR - I suck at this game, and I don't have fun playing it anymore so I'm done.