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Sorry for my behavior

mmobeen··8 votes·747 views

My account "mmobeen" was banned permanently banned yesterday for being toxic. I am not here to gain pity, i don't want it because i know what i did.

This game was a source of enjoyment for me. Notice the word "me". I felt it was my GOD given right to call out every afk players, feeders and every troll player (buying wrong items on champs, picking teemo support and all the other troll behavior that goes on in ranked). I have become exactly what i used to criticize others for; namely being toxic at others.

Although i never wished cancer, death etc or engaged in extreme toxicity that goes on in this game, it does not make my behavior any less bad.

I started playing this game in 2010 and within a span of 6 months this year, i laid waste to my own character. Now, looking back at what i have lost i don;t have it in me to start all over again. I could have ignored the trollish behavior that goes on in the game but i chose not to. I used to criticize my own friends and my cousins for being toxic in-game and yet behind my own screen i was being toxic. I became and acted like what i used to scoff at: A Toxic Troll.

Therefore, I am terribly sorry to every single player who i belittled on my team during my time playing this game in the past 6 months. You did not deserve it. Furthermore, i am extremely sorry if anyone stopped playing this game because of my in-game behavior. I can not find and apologize to the people i offended but i am deeply sorry for ruining your in-game experience.

16 Comments

SheSleepsAllDayY2 votes

None of them are going to read it. Riot isnt going to give you the account back. Get over it, you did nothing wrong.

x Royal Solo x2 votes

boo

Voldymort2 votes

Get over it, you did nothing wrong.

[zombie-brand-facepalm]

Telephone Booth2 votes

Don't feel too bad about it from a moral standpoint. If anything, you should just feel stupid for risking your account just to rage at kids online.

x Royal Solo x1 votes

Yo, I like how you acknowledged your mistakes.

Why not do it sooner?

Also I heard there might be a way to get your account back, you should look on the forums. or open a ticket.

Telephone Booth2 votes

No they don't reverse bans for toxicity. Only if it was made in error. Or I guess if they lock your account for security purposes but that's different.

Peritheus1 votes

Ouch don't sweat the loss, if you like the game you can start anew, reformed, The reason why all eventually succumb to toxic is because there's no 1 to stop it, no 1 to cure it, no 1 fun enough to mitigate it because generally now a days, speaking simply 1 word puts yourself against you causing a bad look for the audience. Rant incoming. Back in old league you could banter, trash talk cause everyone knew eachother and was friendlier, easygoing, simple fun outplaying game, Now? Get solo killed by the sup, 1 shotted by everything, 0 counterplay, 0 outplay rightclick qwer under 1 sec,20 min snowball ff unfun for the losing side,flamed for inting once,called trash for not playing how a good player would build with 0 supportive facts,reported for saying ?,afk/steal jg/creeps for ks, Harass/report you by taking things out of 1 sided perspective context etc,stubborn to admit your own mistakes dragging your teammates with you. At least you dodged a bullet by admitting your mistakes instead of being held as a witch trial over your logs with ignorant 1 sided perspective nonconstructive criticism insincere hatred, because generally that's what happens in player behavior to those downvoted to oblivion.

Verbally Abusing1 votes

The past is the past verbal abuse is wrong. I've also been banned for it and know how it feels to lose an account that you have had for many years. But you cant just undo what you have said. feels bad man.

BLACK REALM GOD1 votes

...buying the "wrong" items on champs, picking "teemo support", and all the other "troll behavior"

that mentality is one reason why you're banned.

it's called a difference of strategic opinion. you cant control your opponents decisions any more than riot can when it comes to what to buy, who to play, and when to engage. that's their choice.

trolling is systematic disruptive behavior that is essentially harassment with an intent to be humorous. things like purposely double placing wards, following an ally around and spamming emotes to annoy them (which has a solution now), telling the enemies where an ally is, asking for 1v1's or dance off's at baron, purposely sabotaging your ally's attempts at jungling by last hitting his/her mobs, selling all of your items repeatedly to prevent yourself from being able to buy any items, banning your ally's champion in champ select, asking for a champion trade and then not following through with the trade to screw over your ally, dancing under your opponents turret while minions, the turret, or an enemy kills you, popping plants to force your ally into unfavorable situations, taking health pick ups while full on hp and mana when your ally is trying to heal/recover mana with the pickup, attacking skuttler crab with no intent to kill it for a majority of the game, and so on.

saying that garen is trolling just because he buys ap is very VERY presumptuous. while it's true that garen scales terribly with AP it's also a fact that there are items and masteries in the game that benefit from garen's spin and they can apply magic damage, magic resist debuffs, and other forms of sustain that are not generally in garen's kit.

instead of jumping directly to the conclusion that something is trolling because it's not optimal instead entertain the idea that it might just be situational or non-traditional/experimentational.

mmobeen1 votes

Sorry, i don't agree with your or RIOT's definition of trolling. But hear me out.

Though i agree there can be a difference of opinion on what to buy or what not to buy OR what champ to play in what role. There are limits to it logically and morally. A player shouldn't come into a ranked game and pick teemo support knowing very well that it is a really bad pick or as you said build ap on garen.

You are also wrong that my mentality about the above argument was the reason i got banned.

My mentality is not and was not the problem. What i did about addressing the issue was the problem. instead of doing the mature thing e.g just playing the game, I chose to immediately call the person a TROLL. That is where i was wrong. That person chose to be a troll or try something in ranked game without thinking of consequences for his other teammates AND i worsened the situation by name calling him.

I am not saying this because i got perma banned.

I finally get it that it is a game. It is the luck of a draw, i would have gotten good teammates and bad teammates. Win or Loose it was just a game and I or YOU or RIOT cannot compel anyone to play a certain way because that is the meta or behave in a certain way because it is appropriate.

I can only affect my behavior. instead of just grinding through these trollish games i chose to sit behind my keyboard and fume and call the other person troll.

Like i said i wasn't toxic by standards of Ocelot or tyler1 or many other notable names. I just chose to call others trolls/idiots/feeders not thinking that i was an idiot myself for name calling.

BLACK REALM GOD1 votes

just make a new account and smurf then. apparently league doesnt prevent new accounts so while yes you did lose everything up to the point of the ban that you had earned there is also the silver lining that you have new things to earn anyway and a lot of the game features are genuinely free. if you're good you should be able to earn S ranks no problem. if you have friends that are good you can get piggy backed by them. when you enter ranked you'll have next season to look forward to with a fresh mmr and LP rating.

while the reason you were banned specifically is due to you addressing the issue, you have to realize that had you not had the issue in the first place then you'd have never reacted. to that end the ultimate reason is your inability to accept the validity of potential skill or the existence of the inexperienced. a fear of the unknown if you will and a grudge towards those that you feel caused you or others to not be able to win. So really it's natural to be angry about something you disagree with. Controlling that anger is step one of course, but there's so much more that needs to be done before even considering yourself "mature". maturity is merely a societal baseline for comparing ideas and such. it's not something that's set in stone. Today it might be "dont talk back" and tomorrow it might be "report them to the authorities".

that might seem confusing, but if you dont get it just let me know and i'll try explaining better.

Need Gold 4 Tent1 votes

[{quoted}](name=BLACK REALM GOD,realm=NA,application-id=ZGEFLEUQ,discussion-id=TT4fjAif,comment-id=0005,timestamp=2017-09-27T01:23:53.551+0000)

...buying the "wrong" items on champs, picking "teemo support", and all the other "troll behavior"

that mentality is one reason why you're banned.

it's called a difference of strategic opinion. you cant control your opponents decisions any more than riot can when it comes to what to buy, who to play, and when to engage. that's their choice.

trolling is systematic disruptive behavior that is essentially harassment with an intent to be humorous. things like purposely double placing wards, following an ally around and spamming emotes to annoy them (which has a solution now), telling the enemies where an ally is, asking for 1v1's or dance off's at baron, purposely sabotaging your ally's attempts at jungling by last hitting his/her mobs, selling all of your items repeatedly to prevent yourself from being able to buy any items, banning your ally's champion in champ select, asking for a champion trade and then not following through with the trade to screw over your ally, dancing under your opponents turret while minions, the turret, or an enemy kills you, popping plants to force your ally into unfavorable situations, taking health pick ups while full on hp and mana when your ally is trying to heal/recover mana with the pickup, attacking skuttler crab with no intent to kill it for a majority of the game, and so on.

saying that garen is trolling just because he buys ap is very VERY presumptuous. while it's true that garen scales terribly with AP it's also a fact that there are items and masteries in the game that benefit from garen's spin and they can apply magic damage, magic resist debuffs, and other forms of sustain that are not generally in garen's kit.

instead of jumping directly to the conclusion that something is trolling because it's not optimal instead entertain the idea that it might just be situational or non-traditional/experimentational.

The thing is, there is nearly nothing to justify AP Garen, and note that I love meta breaking too. But there has to be some logic behind it. I can still justify AD Anivia for having one of the longest ranges in the game. I can explain jungle Karthus because his clear is amazing and he's pretty safe in the jungle if your map awareness is on. But with AP Garen, I can't really say much except... maybe magic pen specifically for R? Which sounds like a very weak reasoning. Break metas all you want, but at least put some thought into it rather than "It's funny".

BLACK REALM GOD1 votes

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dft, tld, etc. they all provide magic damage or ap.

if you go with certain on hit builds you can increase your regen beyond the normal amount.

Need Gold 4 Tent1 votes

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item 3001 item 3076 item 3136 item 3146 item 3020 item 3087 item 3091 item 3115 item 3116 item 3078

dft, tld, etc. they all provide magic damage or ap.

if you go with certain on hit builds you can increase your regen beyond the normal amount.

I could see a bush Garen going Dusk/Luden's/Gunblade/Shiv/IE for the 1 shot silence I guess.

BLACK REALM GOD1 votes

seeee. now you're thinking.

RazgrizRevived1 votes

Riot doesn't give a fuck about you. They can ban everyone if they want. The top brass don't give a shit. they are millionaires. and that's not going to change until someone burns their HQ buildings to the fucking ground and beats the shit out of a few executives/CEO or some level of activism. and its not even worth it. people should just avoid games that are text only communication. voice communication games are harder to monitor and your free speech is usually protected in that sense.

IF you have a job or got the money? Just drop 100 bucks and get two lvl 30 accounts for 20-50 bucks and add the skins for only the champs you play most, or just use the program wooxy and get skins for free , or skinLoL or the many others than enable skins for free. Fuck Riot.

There used to be a site i used that did key generators for codes that you could get tons of free RP. I got like 40000 RP in a 3 month period for free. and I don't think Riot ever even knew about this. But im pretty sure it was someone within the company that was making this happen. BUt idk anymore. I don't care, I have 4 accounts and I got over 10000 Rp for all of them free so fuck riot they aint getting a dime from me.

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