I don't know what to do anymore
I come home from a hard day at work, make something to eat and turn on my PC to play a game of league only to join the most frustrating situations I've ever had to face.
I really want to leave this game for good, but something in me is saying "it's only bad luck; happens to everybody".
It's not: 10 minutes queued in ranked as a top-laner (primary) and ADC (secondary) only to end up grouped with a 3 man team who forgets smite on there jg, and an AFK adc.
Reporting after a dreadful (and even a decent game) has become part of the league experience for me and i'm honestly unhappy with it.
This game, the one i grew into and enjoyed is not fun anymore and as a player who used to be proud of being a part of the community
- the one where i could tell my friends that i play league and we would exchange profile names
- the one where i felt that i could improve if i tried hard enough like in any other enjoyable game; learn from your mistakes, look up guide from experienced players, and watch the pros play your champion in ways you could have never imagined
I feel like I'm now just another number on there twitch LCS stream because in honestly, i will never generate enough money for RIOT in order for them to do anything about the state of the game for casual players. However, i do get benefits if i group with my friends because it increased the percentage of us generating more income for the game. That is my opinion as a Solo bronze player, and i am just 1 out of the ~70% of us that make up the NA server population.
I have uninstall once, however after a week i thought maybe it was just a string of bad luck and installed again. I have primarily been playing normal games which don't seem that bad at all, but after gaining the confidence to play ranked and climb elo yesterday, i am making this post because it's honestly not fun anymore and i am frustrated.
So frustrated in fact that after the game i mentioned above i send a... not-so-nice bug-report after i reported my ADC for afking and i thought about it and felt bad for sending it.
after writing this i feel a bit better because it is a way for me to let out my feeling towards the current state of the game, and hopefully i can hop into another game without the fear if being but through ~20 minutes of hell again.